Stupid + lousy= me

yeah man... feel dumb about the way i'm handling lots of the overlays today. Don't even know how to roll up a roll of talc nicely; waste so much paper just to create a checklist that i can do on excel and print onto one bloody piece of paper; why did i bother to label all the talcs SO SO specifically... i mean, in the end, just give out anyone of the same title to the big guys is still same what right?

oh well, my brain is like totally disabled i think. getting more and more blurer and stupid as the days go by. gosh should really sleep early one fine day.

played a bit of frisbee today, cuz hq got some sports day crap for those staying back in camp. played frisbee with the support guys.. so it was random support guys VS mortar. In the 1st match, my team just thrashed mortar like watever. But 2nd game, we were close, but lost to mortar. pretty fun to play with these guys lah. think most of them jc batch like me.. oh well, too bad i won't be able to join them for long.

wonder how the guys in brunei are doing. alpha and those going from hq left on mon; charlie and support left yesterday. haha i was at the airport yesterday actually to send ah q off to melbourne. too bad lah, can't stay on long enough to send the charlie guys off. anywayz, hope they have a meaningful time there.

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History tidbit
The world's first A380 landed in Singapore today!!! Wow wow wee yeah!!!

you wish everything in life were free

aiyaya!!! checked my payslip today! They minus off 86 bucks for medical co-payment!!! Sian!!! By right, can get 1000+ thx to back-pay, then minus the co-payment, plus all the other unimportant stuff, can only get 900+... pfff

sian ah

young guy among the old folks

anyone knows what an MRI is? Its magnetic resonance imaging, the use of a nuclear magnetic resonance spectrometer to produce electronic images of specific atoms and molecular structures in solids, especially human cells, tissues, and organs.

That's what dr lo recommended for me so that he could get a closer look at my knee. Sheesh, didn't know he would go to this kind of extent.

Left camp at around 8am, immediately after 1st parade, w/out anytime for breakfast. So poor me set on the no 2 bus all the way with a growling stomach. hmph tried to sleep, but couldn't leh. think i woke up again with a bad headache. Haiz.

When i got to sgh, they asked me to change into this gown for radiology. haha its just the gown and your shoes (plus your underwear) talk about the fashion man... walked out of the changing room feeling quite funny, cuz the gown was meant for aunties, not for young gd-looking shuai ges like yours truky.. xp

as i was waiting, i noticed that i was the youngest patient there. everyone one else was either a senior citizen or middle-aged. made me start to wonder why in the world i'm here lor. Only old pple go for these kind of checks and such.. What bout me? Feeling old as well.

Ok so after waiting for close to 1.5 hours (dun forget i haven't had breakfast, and lunch time was soon), those slow pokes finally called me in. Honestly, I thought it was gonna be some normal x-ray shoot... until i saw this damn big machine sitting in front of me. gosh its that kind of scanning system in which you slot your body into the machine. woah felt scared. worse still, they gave me a shower cap and ear plugs (cuz it might get a bit loud). my heart was racing. how bad could it get...

the feeling was kind of weird when they slotted my body into the machine. don't know if the machine would shoot some labour or something at my knee, causing me to jump or something. worse, the doctor attending to me said that it would be 40min long and i had to keep my knee still throughout.. :o

actually, once the thing started, it just churned a few loud beeps and random sounds. didn't feel anything at all. couldn't sleep, cuz the thing was pretty loud..

when the bill came, my jaw dropped... Total cost: $692 smackaroonees!!! sheesh damn ex.. thankfully can claim all the way ah, else my one month pay can't support me seah...

went for lunch with pappy at don. mmm the best bulgogi beef rice can be found at DON Noodle Bistro at Tanglin Mall. yup...

rushed back to camp after that to move on with life....

Leave woes and a wasted leg

yeah, when i checked the amount of leave i had for the remainder of the year last week, i was shocked that i had only a meagre 3 days left. like, wth!!! dunno why my bmt coy took off 8 days of my leave, when my oc promised at least 1 day off. plus, other pple from other coys only had 5 days subtracted. grrr so unfair and screwed up!!!

anywayz, highlighted this problem to my DY today.. of course, he trusted me, the truthful, honest spec ;p , and gave me 3 days off... So yay, I'm on par with everyone else. YESH!!!

went to see my specialist yesterday, after ops audit... tried to sleep on the no 2 bus all the way there, but it wasn't as comfortable as taking a 74 from skool to macritchie, interestingly. got off the bus slightly groggy, but well, had an appt to make.

so yup, since dr lo was busy, another one of the specialists came in to see me. He did a quick measure of my thighs and realised that my right quadriceps was only half the size of my left quadriceps!!! WOah, dr lo didn't expect it to be that bad either. quite jialat for a 19 year old, when you should be running more and enjoying your youth. Gosh, feel like a senior citizen with some chronic knee problem! Gasp!! anywayz, he gave me another 3 weeks ex rmj. wonder if the MO will see it the same way... still, most importantly, will my leg ever return to normal??? wanna do more sports when i go to uni, before the rest of my youth is sapped away..

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~youth is fleeting~

SAT woes

i've been steadily scoring poorer and poorer in my mock SAT tests. in fact, in my last test, i only scored like 600 for maths. i had 10 consecutive qns wrong for identifying sentence errors, and my essay is getting nowhere. to make things worse, next week is my actual SAT, and i'm aiming for stanford. hmmm, wonder if i can still make it...

~shakes head and sighs~

anywayz, here's a quik quiz.. very obvious one. answer all the qns first b4 looking at the answers:

Qns:
1) How long did the Hundred Years War last?
2) Which country makes Panama hats?
3) From which animal do we get catgut?
4) In which month do Russians celebrate the October Revolution?
5) What is a camel's hair brush made of?
6) The Canary Islands in the Pacific are named after what animal?
7) What was King George VI's first name?
8) What color is a purple finch?
9) Where are Chinese gooseberries from?
10) What is the color of the black box in a commercial airplane?







eh.. dun cheat!!!





Ans:
1) 116 years, from 1337 to 1453
2) Ecuador
3) From sheep and horses
4) November. The Russian calendar was 13 days behind ours
5) Squirrel fir
6) The Latin name was Insularia Canaria - Island of the Dogs
7) Albert. When he became king in 1936, he respected the wish of Queen Victoria that no future king should ever be called Albert
8) Distinctively crimson
9) New Zealand
10) Orange

~oops not so straightforward yeah?~

screwed up overtime

yup that's wat happened lah... my branch had to stay back for some prep with our bosses to prepare for an upcoming audit. prior to this day, we've been doing lots of drawing and tracing. wah do so much until my eyeball gonna pop out liao.

so on this fateful night, we worked hard and toiled on until 10.30pm.. cuz of this, i failed to see ms goon off at the airport. could sense the sadness in her voice when i called her to tell her that i would not be able to make it. yeah understand the feeling. zheng books out on sat night, chork on overseas training, vanessa overseas, bernie with an upset stomach.. so think i was her 'last hope'.. gasp!!

haiz wat to do leh.. anyway, hope ms goon wil enjoy herself at cambridge. haha must send back some photos of your blonde classmates yeah? haha

just so blessed

wow wow wee yea... went to DON at tanglin mall for dinner with popo and yeye.. had taht korean bulgogi beef rice thingey... ummm... damn shiok and nice. filling too... the nice sunny side-up egg on the top adds to the stickiness of the rice, just the way i like it.

did a bit of window shopping after dinner. walked past 'that cd shop' and heard those kind of familiar tunes that you usually hear on 90.5 and on tv ads, but never knew the title. (oh yeah, for those who didn't know, i'm an oldie fan. lol) walked in and.. JACKPOT. the whole album had all those popular songs that have lasted through the ages and have been used countless times on tv... like 'music to watch girls by' (interestingly, that's the title of the album by high society) just heard a few of the songs and went "wow! must really get this album"

then the big heart-stabber came when i saw the price tag. bleh... 36 bucks!!! hmmm gotta consider.. but then, quite suddenly, popo just took one album of the rack, asked me if i liked it, and immediately ran to the cashier to pay for it. i was like "woah! that's fast!" and the album was mine... wow, how deep is their love for me

you know, i must be really blessed... did some reflection just now, thinking how good the Good Lord has been to me, even though i've been disobedient and simply a wretched person. He's given me such great parents who love and support me all the way; loving grandparents to shower even more love on me; good health, a house to live in; great pals in camp too... what more can i ask...

yeah wat more can i ask, except for the Good Lord to continue to draw me close to Him...

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ONE DAY

More than I could hope or dream of,

You want to pour your favour on me.

One day in the house of God is,

better than a thousand days in the world.

CHORUS:

So blessed I can't contain it.

So much I gotta give it away.

Your love has taught me to live now.

You are more than enough for me.

something's missing

yeah.. feeling the pinch once again for not persevering.

the other sgts were teaching their guys some stuff, something that i would have liked to do. but well, guess i'll never have the chance to do it, since i don't have my own men to look after.

still, i was able to walk around after lunch to kaypoh at their coy line. taught the guys some wrong stuff which i later corrected. (prob its a good thing i didn't teach them anything) haha so much for being a TO... lol

Happy Birthday Pappy!!!

Gee, Dad is really getting old. yi4 zhuan2 yan3 (in a flash of an eye), he's 49, and having lots of white hair. haha must be the stress at work that he goes through each day. he's been complaining a bit about work and wants to get out of it. oh well, he calls it a mid-life change (something to that extent lah) .. as a good son, i just accept it as his wish, since its his life. yup...

so today, to celebrate, we went out with popo and yeye to colbar, near temasek club. apparantly, this place was an officer's mess in some camp last time. then with the construction of the semi-expressway near aye, they shifted there lor. haha the chinese food there was really good, better than chin chin to be precise. price was a bit steep, but well, now with gst going up, inflation is settiling in.

on a side note, think we were the only table eating chinese food; everyone else was going western, so yup think that's what we'll do next week =)

on a separate note, at bs today, got to share a bit of my heart with jonas about my throwing in the towel early problem. oh wll, at least feel better that yup, can share it with someone lah...

you know, though i've confessed that i may have been disobedient, and i know that the good Lord has forgiven me, i still feel unworthy of Him. honestly, i feel that He's still somehow pissed at me. maybe it's just me thinking too much, but hey, when your friend pissed you off, won't you still remain grouchy about it for a few days, even though you may have forgiven him?

Nah, i don't think God's like that... Thank God for that

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11Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.
13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.
17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father. "But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.[b]'
22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

-Luke 15:11-24 (NIV)

35So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.

36You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.

37For in just a very little while, "He who is coming will come and will not delay.

38But my righteous one[f] will live by faith.

And if he shrinks back,

I will not be pleased with him."[g]

39But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed,

but of those who believe and are saved.

Split away suddenly

FINALLY, got a chance to see the physiotherapist. wah she quite pretty and young one leh... haha... quite nice also.. think she was able to diagnos my problem more accurately then the other specialists i've seen so far.

yeah, now just me and my buddy, together with the others in my branch. Gee i miss the time we new commanders could just be together in the bunk, talking cock with each other, comparing how screwed up our lives are, or just supporting each other, either through prayer or just waking each other up on time...

so yup, both of us will be the boss of our bunk now... gotta go clean up the bunk too. so freakin dusty...

well, gonna miss the good ol' times... but err come to think of it, its only just 3 weeks together
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haha i like this m1 ad... heard it was the indian restaurant owner who thought out the whole idea.. real smartz..



LOL

choices and stubborness

hey yo... its great being able to just blog here without anyone disturbing you. haha

so yup, i'm out of sispec and now at my home unit, the place where i'll be for the next 1 year and two more months. its an infantry unit by the way, and well, that means more chionging all the way.

anyway, went to see a specialist about my knee. interestingly he didn't ask me to go for an x-ray to see if my condition got worse. But oh well, after a few leg 'tests', he recommended 6 weeks rmj to go rest the poor knee before flying off to brunei.

Pretty thankful for that, cuz well, at least i get the rest from all the rushing that i thought i would have to face in the unit (just like bmtc and sispec). Interestingly enough, unit life really isn't so bad after all. On the contrary, there's quite a fair bit of free time, so haha not that bad after all.

More interestingly, into the first week of unit life, my RSM told me that cuz of my condition, I might get posted to be an int spec. Haha guess the amount of joy I felt after that. whee at last a chance to try something different and new.

however, my posting still wasn't confirmed yet, until further into the month when everyone else was slotted in nicely. so I did have the worry that, hey, i may not get what i want.

so what did i do about it? just persisted in prayer for that whole week, pleading with God that He would grant me my dream post. and in fact, that was the first thing on my list each night.

you may say i may be a very pious, religious person, but hey, that's where i think i crashed and burned badly. cuz in my prayers, i was just stubbornly praying that i would get what i want, instead of praying, "Oh Lord, let Your will be done' Worse still, i kept pleading for my request to be fulfilled, knowing full well that what i was doing was wrong. i mean, i did ponder to myself that by just letting God decide where i go to, i may get a better deal in the long run. but, i guess i just chose to throw in the towel along the way, and quit the path of faithfulness towards my God.

I feel ashamed... ashamed at cutting down my own cross

Well, i've gotten what i want now, but i'm beginning to feel the pains (and regrets) of stubbornly choosing my own path. I'm now separated from my pals who came here together with me from hotel platoon 3. and well, i really treasure these guys (bk, meng hwee, weijun, jar-min), but gotta let go of them now as they trudge out their own paths in their own company. also, i have no section to lead. wonder if it is a good thing or not, but well, guess i missed the essence of being in an unit.

thankfully, God still never forgot my fear of loneliness; Joel also got posted along with me. well, at least someone else I can talk to, but well, 2 guys tend to get familiar with each other too quickly, and then we realise that there's nothing else left to talk about. that's when the coldness sets in again. sigh... hope it stays wrong between us...

do hope my pals are having a great time together with their company and each other.

~Oh God, don't abandon me~


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8 "Hear, O my people, and I will warn you— if you would but listen to me, O Israel
9 You shall have no foreign god among you;

you shall not bow down to an alien god.
10 I am the LORD your God,

who brought you up out of Egypt.

Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.
11 "But my people would not listen to me;

Israel would not submit to me.
12 So I gave them over to their stubborn hearts to follow their own devices.
13 "If my people would but listen to me,

if Israel would follow my ways,
14 how quickly would I subdue their enemies

and turn my hand against their foes!
15 Those who hate the LORD would cringe before him,

and their punishment would last forever.
16 But you would be fed with the finest of wheat;

with honey from the rock I would satisfy you."

-Psalm 81: 8-16

Back again

ok now blogging for the sake of blogging.l haha so i'm now using one of the comps at rocky hill mess. our dear OC is gonna sing shang4 hai3 tan1... like wth.. lol...

ok so gonna have some fun now, won't take too much of guang hao's time.. thx lots !!!

cheers

p.s pay you??? you WISH AH!!!

SURPRISE

gee... once again, using the airport terminal to blog now. Heading off for taiwan now. For what purpose? shhh.... can't say anything about it..

oh well, feeling rather quesy about all this. I mean, am i ready for it?oh well, we'll see....

can't wait to get my own laptop, then i can continue blogging normally...

ok going on msn to see if anyone is online... to those who seee this new post, well, that shows that i'm still keen on blogging, just that my mum's laptop sux,and well no time lah..

God bless

YAY!!! Can FINALLY post!!!

phew.. finally logged into blogger in beta, at the free web access terminal at the budget terminal.. lol...

think my mum's laptop super screwed up. Of all things, cannot post. So yeah that's why its been super stagnant all this while... anyone has idea on how to fix my cookies?

anyway, i think i may wanna have a switch soon... may want to change to some other blog provider like livejournal or something. Any recommendations from any of you?

ok ok gtg and run about to explore the budget terminal. will try and talk more when i come back...

Kor Prajao way porn!!!

ok better than i thot

yeah.. maths 's' today lor... haha thot i would be sleeping through most of the paper, cuz i was super sleepy this morning, with my arms aching like crazy (dunno why, but i dreamt that i was helping some hospital test their new blood pressure machine. the pads go on both arms, and they squeeze real hard...)

surprisingly, though i couldn't complete an entire whole qns (unlike those maths philes), I could do at least 2/3 of the whole thing... yup fully awake too during the paper. quite a miracle somehow, cuz I only slept at 11.30 last nite... hmph

so yup, thank you God!!!

oh by the way, does anyone have the lyrics for 'endless love', the song by jackie chan in the myth; also, anyone got lyrics for qian li zhi wai also? haha pass to me in hard copy if you can yeah? my comp can't read chinese =(

kk few more days left.. let's go sleep...

zzzzzz

f for f maths

yeah... f for f maths... screwed mechanics... and the stats qns were weird man... i got a 2 sample Z test...

grrr.... cambridge is getting weirder...

Phew... one more week leh

aiya... past few weeks have been like bitter-sweet... maybe i just whine about a few stuff that i can remember lah:

phys got 6 mistakes for mcq liao. then phys paper 2 was like a mad killer lah. Their beginning to ask really weird and random questions. Eg: "Define the radian!!! Like huh? Isn't this a freaking maths question???? And even if it is, maths will never ask this kind of rubbish...

screwed chem paper 3. spent too much time on the first question on electrolysis. cathode reaction is wrong. its not H+ lah... then no time for the inorg section, which I usually do last.

ok on the good side, f maths was do-able. Think I can get my first A, in like the whole row of EEEEs and an O. Ok B is fine lah... But real scared that they will slaughter us in paper 2.

Oh and the biggest joke of them all: the topic that got the entire engin fac so worked up
(esp Medusa Beethoven) DID NOT COME OUT!!! Wah stupid lah... Waste so many weeks on lectures, extra lectures, tutorials.. extra lessons with jonas (which really helped a lot ;op ) and having to tolerate Beethoven's non-stop ranting on how she has to 'shou shi can ju' (clean up the mess). haha lol

seems like everyone is still in the exam mood and mugging hard... think i should do the same too...

yup even good old raffles is into it too

All the BEST!!!

haha yup one of my biggest worries is over!!! spent the past 4 days just purely mugging for gp. wonder if it was a good idea, but well, gp rather important in getting the course you want in NUS. Heard from my pastor that those who dun do well for gp must bid for their course, while those who scored for gp were 'assigned' the courses they wanted. so yup, cannot overlook gp.

oh well, i did qns 3, if you are curious. AQ was weird. summary is tough...

oh well, anyway, gotta do the next thing on my schedule, which is to..... burn my gp notes. oh but before that, yeah just wanna wish you guys:



God's eagle so that you can SOAR!















and God's rook for security and peace of mind..







Yup mug on hard. God bless =)

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30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40: 30-31
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10 The name of the LORD is a strong tower;
the righteous run to it and are safe.

Proverbs 18:10

disillusioned

you know, the a-levels are coming close. ideally, i thought i should be more or less on full steam, ploughing through my notes and my books, revising every single detail and mechanism, practicing lots more past year papers, wasting less time.

of course, that's an ideal. and in real life, we always deviate from the ideal scenario. I dunno.. I really wanna push on, but i feel so sian, so tired. like doing the same thing all day long..

the other thing that puts me off is my speed at doing things. i dunno, somehow quite a few pple can like do 2 papers and mug 1 chem topic a day, for eg. then here's the not-so-smart me doing 1 chem topic the whole screwed up day.

oh and you know how pissful it is to keep practicing at something you know you are weak at, hoping you will improve. and lo and behold, you don't. and then the smarty pants all around you are like scoring so well, so much better than you.

haiz... guess i should aim slightly lower. after all, I'm not the very high standard kinda chap, so why bother to fight my way into such a high standard, high class kinda uni where all the smarty pants all go and then i feel the same thing i've been facing for the past 2 years again 3 years down the road. anyway, what's wrong studying here?

haiz... just dang tired. my eyes especially. mugging like this is gonna make me so short-sighted that i'm as good as blind. yeah, many so many people play so much longer than me and their degree is still 300 to 400, while i haven't played any game in ages and my degree is over 700. haiz unfairness of life.

then again... real life deviates from the ideal, so just live with it...

eye wrinkles

sian ah... blogger take so long to upload the images i want it to upload. it keeps saying its uploading, circles 1 round, then stops there. oh wait its up now.

haha guess that's what you get when you mug too much huh? just look stoned with huge eyebags.. gosh..

kk go mug...

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you believe?