yay... got this nice new belt from aunty kah eng today. think this should go well with my jeans, unlike the stupid $2 belt from daiso.. i mean its nice lah, but this new one is definitely more suited for jeans..
then she also treated my ss class for lunch at this restaurant at tmcc.. wah the food was great. i liked my fried ice cream lots.. wonder how they fry it while still keeping the ice cream inside cold.. must have skill...
i love my belt.. and new year is coming!!
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Another class gathering
sheesh my post titles are getting stale and stagnant. can't think of anything more creative.. sigh
anyway, as the post title suggests, had another so1d class gathering at wang kan's house. pretty nice place... and his room is so much neater than mine!! gosh gotta do something about the mess i'm living in every weekend.. =(
so ok, not many pple turned up.. just jiashun, ms goon, zhaowei, zheng and i. modest number, but still enough for texas hold 'em!! the mtv was pretty distracting, so didn't have the full impact of the game.
had canadian pizza for dinner. think the raw chilli with bbq sauce and cheese in the singapura special was a poisonous combination, cuz i caught the L.S syndrome and had to stink up wang kan's toilet. oops...
after dinner, we just sat down to talk cock about uni. never knew js and wk were so into economics. wah js even knows lots about econs in the uk... sheesh what am i doing man? like wat zheng said, i feel so useless reading all the novels that i'm reading now.
anywayz, i met up with chork after we left wk's house. passed him his christmas present: pink ankle socks!! yup you didn't read it wrongly. why those? well, he loves pink right? and yeah, think he needs to move on from the white socks he's been wearing since pri skool, right chork? haha hope you like it...
anyway, as the post title suggests, had another so1d class gathering at wang kan's house. pretty nice place... and his room is so much neater than mine!! gosh gotta do something about the mess i'm living in every weekend.. =(
so ok, not many pple turned up.. just jiashun, ms goon, zhaowei, zheng and i. modest number, but still enough for texas hold 'em!! the mtv was pretty distracting, so didn't have the full impact of the game.
had canadian pizza for dinner. think the raw chilli with bbq sauce and cheese in the singapura special was a poisonous combination, cuz i caught the L.S syndrome and had to stink up wang kan's toilet. oops...
after dinner, we just sat down to talk cock about uni. never knew js and wk were so into economics. wah js even knows lots about econs in the uk... sheesh what am i doing man? like wat zheng said, i feel so useless reading all the novels that i'm reading now.
anywayz, i met up with chork after we left wk's house. passed him his christmas present: pink ankle socks!! yup you didn't read it wrongly. why those? well, he loves pink right? and yeah, think he needs to move on from the white socks he's been wearing since pri skool, right chork? haha hope you like it...
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Sunday, December 23, 2007
plans and miracles
the plan today was to meet up with what was left of so1d for kbox. so ok, arrived at somerset mrt at 11.30am, on time. Of course, only ms goon was the 1st to arrive. she told me that the rest would be coming late, either at 1pm, 2pm or 4pm... 2+1 words came to my mind: "kena conned again!" sheesh shouldn't have bothered coming on time.. should have stayed at home, play some texas hold 'em before coming over..
oh well, so in the end, only 4 of us (grace, weijia, esther and i) walked over to cine to have lunch. we settled on xin wang on the 3rd floor. since i ate a baked rice like just 2 days ago, i decided to whack a pork chop instead. pretty ok lah... to me, baked rice is still the best dish ever. yup!!!
we just sit there, talk cock, laugh at each other lor.. how each of them are failing C++.. come to think of it, what's the relevance of learning C++, when there are other better languages to play about out there in the IT world? halfway through, got a bit bored, so i used grace's phone to tape weijia eating for 5 min... no significance, but weijia just kept whining why i have something against her... lol
arcade nxt, but the arcade at cine so small... me and grace first tried this stupid shoot the mutated jungle freaks.. these are the kind of games i hate, frankly speaking. all the giant spiders crawling all over you, trying to eat you up.. yucks.. then nxt was daytona. can never beat esther, but prob because my car's manual transmission got problem... can't shift to 4th gear on time, and the stick can't go to 2nd gear. screwed up car...
went to kbox after flying an aeroplane. just sing sing sing lor... got a bit sian after some time.. dunno how chork was able to sing till 4am last night and come back for another kbox shot.. like he's addicted to it or sth.. must get him a cold turkey treatment.. wah haha...
left halfway to go to church... told uncle loy cheow that i would be half an hour late for sunday school. but then, when i arrived, i realised that the class was cancelled, since other than me, NO ONE else came... sad huh? wonder why our priorities are so screwed up... sigh...
the singing by the kids was most wonderful.. they're real pros. think they should be fine for tomorrow's christmas carolling service... haha =)
anywayz, went to my grandma's house for dinner to celebrate their 60th wedding anniversary. Woah so many years together. Saw a photo of them at their 50th wedding anniversary (when i was just 9 years old.. hah). They haven't changed much, other than the fact that grandpa is on a wheel chair now. Gotta really thank and praise God for keeping them together for 60 years. Not easy you know, having to raise 5 children so that i can have so many cousins to talk to. haha..
you know, this celebration was nearly impossible. i still remember how my grandpa fell off the weighing scale last year, causing him to be warded in the icu for close to a month. brain haemorrhage i think. Though the fall has caused him to be wheel-chair dependent, i still really wanna thank God that he's still alive and can still remember who we all are. usually, when you fall and strike the back of your head on the ground first, i believe you'll have some form of amnesia. Think you're more likely to get it if you're 84 years old in a more severe form. (haha biologists out there, correct me if i'm wrong. =) )
If anyone asks to see a miracle, i'll just tell them to look at my grandpa; he is THE miracle..
oh well, so in the end, only 4 of us (grace, weijia, esther and i) walked over to cine to have lunch. we settled on xin wang on the 3rd floor. since i ate a baked rice like just 2 days ago, i decided to whack a pork chop instead. pretty ok lah... to me, baked rice is still the best dish ever. yup!!!
we just sit there, talk cock, laugh at each other lor.. how each of them are failing C++.. come to think of it, what's the relevance of learning C++, when there are other better languages to play about out there in the IT world? halfway through, got a bit bored, so i used grace's phone to tape weijia eating for 5 min... no significance, but weijia just kept whining why i have something against her... lol
arcade nxt, but the arcade at cine so small... me and grace first tried this stupid shoot the mutated jungle freaks.. these are the kind of games i hate, frankly speaking. all the giant spiders crawling all over you, trying to eat you up.. yucks.. then nxt was daytona. can never beat esther, but prob because my car's manual transmission got problem... can't shift to 4th gear on time, and the stick can't go to 2nd gear. screwed up car...
went to kbox after flying an aeroplane. just sing sing sing lor... got a bit sian after some time.. dunno how chork was able to sing till 4am last night and come back for another kbox shot.. like he's addicted to it or sth.. must get him a cold turkey treatment.. wah haha...
left halfway to go to church... told uncle loy cheow that i would be half an hour late for sunday school. but then, when i arrived, i realised that the class was cancelled, since other than me, NO ONE else came... sad huh? wonder why our priorities are so screwed up... sigh...
the singing by the kids was most wonderful.. they're real pros. think they should be fine for tomorrow's christmas carolling service... haha =)
anywayz, went to my grandma's house for dinner to celebrate their 60th wedding anniversary. Woah so many years together. Saw a photo of them at their 50th wedding anniversary (when i was just 9 years old.. hah). They haven't changed much, other than the fact that grandpa is on a wheel chair now. Gotta really thank and praise God for keeping them together for 60 years. Not easy you know, having to raise 5 children so that i can have so many cousins to talk to. haha..
you know, this celebration was nearly impossible. i still remember how my grandpa fell off the weighing scale last year, causing him to be warded in the icu for close to a month. brain haemorrhage i think. Though the fall has caused him to be wheel-chair dependent, i still really wanna thank God that he's still alive and can still remember who we all are. usually, when you fall and strike the back of your head on the ground first, i believe you'll have some form of amnesia. Think you're more likely to get it if you're 84 years old in a more severe form. (haha biologists out there, correct me if i'm wrong. =) )
If anyone asks to see a miracle, i'll just tell them to look at my grandpa; he is THE miracle..
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Conned the warlords
Went for the officers' retreat at ac today. supposed to start at 1.30pm, so i was there on time i guess, lugging all my barang barang for staying over at the boarding skool. caught with a few pple, like mr lai and kiwi... Sheesh, haven't seen kiwi for such a long time, since the last enrollment in march... he's really slim sia... haha
anywayz, we didn't really start till about 2.30pm, waiting for everyone else to gather slowly. Then we started with reports on how the past year has been for the various cohorts. struggling to keep awake throughout, cuz well, these stuff didn't really concern me, since i haven't been at parades for some time now. so just listen to everyone else voice their concerns, see mr ng shoot arrows here and there. haha
thought we would have a chance after dinner to have some 'spiritual time', like just spend time worshipping together or something.. but well, we went through the workplan for next year instead. lol... so i just sit there and listen lor... discuss discuss till about 9, which was time for us to go for the warlords at vivo. so yup, no time to sort of affirm one another... hmmm maybe that would be meant for tomorrow.. but well, mr ng said that since all the 2008 appointments and workplan have been confirmed, then there's no more other program until the potluck at 5.30pm tomorrow.. ie to say, the retreat is over, and well, no point staying over... (come to think of it, seems like i was the only idiot prepared to stay over.. sigh so gullible)
when i heard that, 2 words came to my mind: "kena conned!" haha... so i lugged my barang barang along with me to vivo and watched the warlords... quite a typical chinese tragedy like huang2 jing1 jia3. the main characters become brothers first, then kill each other in the end... haha so typical... wonder if jay chou sang any song for this show. lol
and wow, the show ended at midnight, the last train out of vivo was at 11.15pm... thot i would be kinda stuck there, but thankfully, pappy offered to drive all the way there to pick me up... so nice of him...
thank God for such loving parents...
anywayz, we didn't really start till about 2.30pm, waiting for everyone else to gather slowly. Then we started with reports on how the past year has been for the various cohorts. struggling to keep awake throughout, cuz well, these stuff didn't really concern me, since i haven't been at parades for some time now. so just listen to everyone else voice their concerns, see mr ng shoot arrows here and there. haha
thought we would have a chance after dinner to have some 'spiritual time', like just spend time worshipping together or something.. but well, we went through the workplan for next year instead. lol... so i just sit there and listen lor... discuss discuss till about 9, which was time for us to go for the warlords at vivo. so yup, no time to sort of affirm one another... hmmm maybe that would be meant for tomorrow.. but well, mr ng said that since all the 2008 appointments and workplan have been confirmed, then there's no more other program until the potluck at 5.30pm tomorrow.. ie to say, the retreat is over, and well, no point staying over... (come to think of it, seems like i was the only idiot prepared to stay over.. sigh so gullible)
when i heard that, 2 words came to my mind: "kena conned!" haha... so i lugged my barang barang along with me to vivo and watched the warlords... quite a typical chinese tragedy like huang2 jing1 jia3. the main characters become brothers first, then kill each other in the end... haha so typical... wonder if jay chou sang any song for this show. lol
and wow, the show ended at midnight, the last train out of vivo was at 11.15pm... thot i would be kinda stuck there, but thankfully, pappy offered to drive all the way there to pick me up... so nice of him...
thank God for such loving parents...
Friday, December 21, 2007
Bum bum bum around
wah today was pretty fruitful.. for once, i woke up early on my own at 7.30am and went to jog!!! Bit slow then what i could when i was sec 3, but, hey, i managed to drag myself out of bed didn't i? What's more, I could do the monkey bar one bar at a time.. Whee now the time i take to clear the bar is significantly faster than my previous times. haha learnt something great this time round. now just need to continue practising...
met up with popo and yeye at plaza sing, then go buy movie ticks to watch nat'l treasure: book of secrets at the old cathay... then met up with dad to go eat lunch at the malay stall along zion road that sells ge-rate (great) beef rendang. Nice sia.. We went to jalan jalan at great world city, looking for a nice pair of casual shoes for me.. saw this pretty colourful diesel shoe.. pity that the front was a bit too narrow; not too suitable for my wide feet =( so in the end, we didn't buy anything there...
ok so we drove back to the old cathay to watch nat'l treasure. The steps to unlock the treasure were really good.. makes you wanna be part of the treasure hunting group... other than that, pretty average show lah... bit of laughs here and there, but overally good.. i'll give it a 3 out of 5.
met up with gay sim after the show.. haha he so funny, come meet me in rj pe attire... like aiyoyo, that patriotic?
so we bummed around suntec city and marina square, doing some christmas shopping. then we did our own gift exchange. I bought him this cool, nice tee-shirt with those kind of 'double layerings' at the collar and the sleeves, and he got me what i wanted from hmv: the essential Billy Joel!!! Yippeee!!! But wah, it costs $24.95, but comes with 2 cds, so pretty worth it i guess. wonder why i saw it as $14.95 the other time... cock-eye lah...haha..
we hanged around hmv looking for our own stuff. found the 'enchanted' soundtrack!!! Wah the songs were beautiful.. think its a better choice compared to alvin and the chipmunks. can't really bare listening to these animals squealing away.. haha.. gee i really hope i can get the 'enchanted' soundtrack soon [hint hint ;) ]
anywayz, going for a 12th coy retreat over the weekend... haha do hope i'll be able to make full use of the time to seek God about my decision on returning there nxt year...
met up with popo and yeye at plaza sing, then go buy movie ticks to watch nat'l treasure: book of secrets at the old cathay... then met up with dad to go eat lunch at the malay stall along zion road that sells ge-rate (great) beef rendang. Nice sia.. We went to jalan jalan at great world city, looking for a nice pair of casual shoes for me.. saw this pretty colourful diesel shoe.. pity that the front was a bit too narrow; not too suitable for my wide feet =( so in the end, we didn't buy anything there...
ok so we drove back to the old cathay to watch nat'l treasure. The steps to unlock the treasure were really good.. makes you wanna be part of the treasure hunting group... other than that, pretty average show lah... bit of laughs here and there, but overally good.. i'll give it a 3 out of 5.
met up with gay sim after the show.. haha he so funny, come meet me in rj pe attire... like aiyoyo, that patriotic?
so we bummed around suntec city and marina square, doing some christmas shopping. then we did our own gift exchange. I bought him this cool, nice tee-shirt with those kind of 'double layerings' at the collar and the sleeves, and he got me what i wanted from hmv: the essential Billy Joel!!! Yippeee!!! But wah, it costs $24.95, but comes with 2 cds, so pretty worth it i guess. wonder why i saw it as $14.95 the other time... cock-eye lah...haha..
we hanged around hmv looking for our own stuff. found the 'enchanted' soundtrack!!! Wah the songs were beautiful.. think its a better choice compared to alvin and the chipmunks. can't really bare listening to these animals squealing away.. haha.. gee i really hope i can get the 'enchanted' soundtrack soon [hint hint ;) ]
anywayz, going for a 12th coy retreat over the weekend... haha do hope i'll be able to make full use of the time to seek God about my decision on returning there nxt year...
Thursday, December 20, 2007
improvement
hmm things seem to be getting better this week... don't have that same dreaded feeling i feel each day... the feeling of inadequacy.
anywayz, Christmas is coming near. and i'm now on block leave!!! Woo hoo... so if anyone wanna call me out, now's the time yeah? ;)
watched enchanted again last week with jkum... hehe really enjoyed the singing once more.. can't wait to get my hands on the soundtrack, then can throw it into my ipok..
speaking of which, i happened to see the new ipok touch.. WAH! so nice, so cool, so pretty. all the cosmetic features in the ipok touch are just so cool.. and yes, you can watch youtube on the thing too, since the touch also has a wireless modem attached to it. time for an upgrade? neh, don't think so.. still love my good ol' ipok photo. haha... still haven't used 9GB of the thing yet, so waiting to rip more albums when they start coming in...
haha as always, since Christmas is here, i always like to show the great parody of Christmas.. hope you enjoy laughing at it, just as much as I have enjoyed watching it... ahaa
The 12 Pains of Christmas
The first thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Is finding a Christmas tree
The second thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree
The third thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Hangovers
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree
The fourth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to
Sending Christmas cards
Hangovers
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree
The fifth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Five months of bills!
Sending Christmas cards
Hangovers
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree
The sixth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Facing my in-laws
Five months of bills!
Oh, I hate those Christmas cards!
Hangovers
Rigging up these lights!
And finding a Christmas tree
The seventh thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
The Salvation Army
Facing my in-laws
Five months of bills!
Sending Christmas cards
Oh, geez!I'm tryin' to rig up these lights!
And finding a Christmas tree
The eighth thing at Christmas that such a pain to me:
I WANNA TRANSFORMER FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!
Charities,
And whataya mean "YOUR in-laws"?!?
Five months of bills!
Oh, making out these cards
Honey, get me a beer, huh?
What, we have no extension cords?!?
And finding a Christmas tree
The ninth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Finding parking spaces
DADDY, I WANT SOME CANDY!!!!
Donations!
Facing my in-laws
Five months of bills!
Writing out those Christmas cards
Hangovers!
Now why the hell are they blinking?!?!?
And finding a Christmas tree
The tenth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me:
A mother:"Batteries Not Included"
No parking spaces
BUY ME SOMETHIN'!!!
Get a job, ya bum!
Oh, facing my in-laws!
Five months of bills!
Yo-ho, sending Christmas cards
Oh, geez, look at this!
One light goes out, they ALL go out!!!
And finding a Christmas tree
The eleventh thing of Christmas that's such a pain to me:
Stale TV specials
"Batteries Not Included"
No parking spaces
DAD, I GOTTA GO TA BATHROOM!!
Charities!
She's a witch...I hate her!
Five months of bills!
Oh, I don't even KNOW half these people!
Oh, who's got the toilet paper, huh?
Get a flashlight...I blew a fuse!!
And finding a Christmas tree
The twelfth thing of Christmas that's such a pain to me:
Singing Christmas carols
Stale TV specials
"Batteries Not Included"
No parking?!?
WAAAAAAAAAAH! WAAAAAAAAAAH!
Charities!
Gotta make 'em dinner!
Five months of bills!
I'm not sendin' them this year, that's it!
Shut up, you!
FINE! YOU'RE SO SMART, YOU RIG UP THE LIGHTS!!!
And finding a Christmas tree
anywayz, Christmas is coming near. and i'm now on block leave!!! Woo hoo... so if anyone wanna call me out, now's the time yeah? ;)
watched enchanted again last week with jkum... hehe really enjoyed the singing once more.. can't wait to get my hands on the soundtrack, then can throw it into my ipok..
speaking of which, i happened to see the new ipok touch.. WAH! so nice, so cool, so pretty. all the cosmetic features in the ipok touch are just so cool.. and yes, you can watch youtube on the thing too, since the touch also has a wireless modem attached to it. time for an upgrade? neh, don't think so.. still love my good ol' ipok photo. haha... still haven't used 9GB of the thing yet, so waiting to rip more albums when they start coming in...
haha as always, since Christmas is here, i always like to show the great parody of Christmas.. hope you enjoy laughing at it, just as much as I have enjoyed watching it... ahaa
The 12 Pains of Christmas
The first thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Is finding a Christmas tree
The second thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree
The third thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Hangovers
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree
The fourth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to
Sending Christmas cards
Hangovers
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree
The fifth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Five months of bills!
Sending Christmas cards
Hangovers
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree
The sixth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Facing my in-laws
Five months of bills!
Oh, I hate those Christmas cards!
Hangovers
Rigging up these lights!
And finding a Christmas tree
The seventh thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
The Salvation Army
Facing my in-laws
Five months of bills!
Sending Christmas cards
Oh, geez!I'm tryin' to rig up these lights!
And finding a Christmas tree
The eighth thing at Christmas that such a pain to me:
I WANNA TRANSFORMER FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!
Charities,
And whataya mean "YOUR in-laws"?!?
Five months of bills!
Oh, making out these cards
Honey, get me a beer, huh?
What, we have no extension cords?!?
And finding a Christmas tree
The ninth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Finding parking spaces
DADDY, I WANT SOME CANDY!!!!
Donations!
Facing my in-laws
Five months of bills!
Writing out those Christmas cards
Hangovers!
Now why the hell are they blinking?!?!?
And finding a Christmas tree
The tenth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me:
A mother:"Batteries Not Included"
No parking spaces
BUY ME SOMETHIN'!!!
Get a job, ya bum!
Oh, facing my in-laws!
Five months of bills!
Yo-ho, sending Christmas cards
Oh, geez, look at this!
One light goes out, they ALL go out!!!
And finding a Christmas tree
The eleventh thing of Christmas that's such a pain to me:
Stale TV specials
"Batteries Not Included"
No parking spaces
DAD, I GOTTA GO TA BATHROOM!!
Charities!
She's a witch...I hate her!
Five months of bills!
Oh, I don't even KNOW half these people!
Oh, who's got the toilet paper, huh?
Get a flashlight...I blew a fuse!!
And finding a Christmas tree
The twelfth thing of Christmas that's such a pain to me:
Singing Christmas carols
Stale TV specials
"Batteries Not Included"
No parking?!?
WAAAAAAAAAAH! WAAAAAAAAAAH!
Charities!
Gotta make 'em dinner!
Five months of bills!
I'm not sendin' them this year, that's it!
Shut up, you!
FINE! YOU'RE SO SMART, YOU RIG UP THE LIGHTS!!!
And finding a Christmas tree
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Something to ponder on
5Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older.
All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because,
"God opposes the proud
but gives grace to the humble."
6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because,
"God opposes the proud
but gives grace to the humble."
6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Sunday, December 09, 2007
ok i'm sorry
to my dear buddy,
ok i admit, you were right all along. No one would really give a damn about what time we return, or whether we return or not. I'm sorry for making you travel all the way from the west to the east, and for making you leave your home sweet home at such an early time, when there wasn't a need to do so.
Sorry lah, just too over-paranoid. Christmas is just around the corner, and i just don't want anything to happen to any of us. Guess my over-paranoidness is my weakness. hope you understand that...
forgive me won't you?
ok i admit, you were right all along. No one would really give a damn about what time we return, or whether we return or not. I'm sorry for making you travel all the way from the west to the east, and for making you leave your home sweet home at such an early time, when there wasn't a need to do so.
Sorry lah, just too over-paranoid. Christmas is just around the corner, and i just don't want anything to happen to any of us. Guess my over-paranoidness is my weakness. hope you understand that...
forgive me won't you?
Saturday, December 08, 2007
frustrated; inadequate
that's 2 words to describe my past week. Simply put, I feel as though i'm a class lower than all my other colleagues in my office.
For a start, I'm a sgt with a stupid 'jack-knife', hence i'm supposed to be able to do more things than my fellow peers and do my tasks well in a smarter, more efficient way.
Yet somehow, things don't seem to work out as they are. Here's the list:
1) I'm blur
Think that's my biggest defect within me. My brain is just dull and I tend to do things in a long, roundabout way. I fail to see how a task can be done in a more obvious and easier way. For eg, when i scan through a list, i find a mistake on pg 2. I edit the mistake and print out the new list, only to find another mistake on pg 3. i edit that mistake and then find another mistake on pg 5... that sort of thing. Dumb right? my defense is that i'm tired out, cuz i did this at around 9pm. but hey, my good buddy was also doing his own stuff till that time and he's equally tired out as me. he asked why i didn't check through the entire thing 1st, edit at one shot and print at one shot? I was speechless, then just nodded my head and said, " oh yar hor.."
Yeah, think i'm not using enough of my brains. I mean, i'm certain i'm a smart person, but now my brain is just a sponge that absorbs info but can never utilise the knowledge that i have. my brain can't even think through the ways that i can complete tasks. yeah, my brain is just a sponge that is damn good at exams, but sux at doing other things. die man, how to survive when i work?
thankfully got my good buddy here who is observant and somehow knows everything that's going on. Sometimes I ask him how he knows, then he gives me the 'its-so-bloody-obvious' look or the 'i-thought-you-were-there-when-this-guy-told-us-about-it' look. Makes me wonder why I seem to miss out so many things. Gosh, i feel more like a liability than an asset, so inferior. Am I really so blur, or plain oblivious, or both????
2) Dunno What Everyone is Doing
Just like yesterday in the office, everyone was doing something useful and they KNEW what they had to do. For me, i just wandered around the office, wandering WHAT i had to do. It seems like I've finished most important tasks and there was nothing for me at the moment, but it can't be, cuz everyone else was doing something. Just went around wandering what I could do within my area of responsibility. But no leh, found nothing. Tried to think of the not so important stuff that i had always wanted to do, but couldn't think of it leh. Tried to see how I could help, but not so well-versed in the other areas of responsibility. Sigh just frustrated, cuz i was walking around like a man who has no instructions from his boss. I mean, I am, to a certain extent, a superior, yet I was just wandering around like an employee. you know how frustrating that is?
3) Bother about the wrong things
Yeah, ok, prob its because our priorities are different. But then, my good buddy seems to know the more important things to bother about, while i choose to bother about the superficial things. Sigh confused...
4) Too good a life last time
Yeah this is my 'retribution'. Led such a spoilt life when I was young.. Now come here, simple things like tearing scotch tape without a scissors also cannot do properly. Sigh so inadequate. Gotta really start doing things on my own..
Sigh... Just feel useless and inadequate at where I am now. Is this the punishment for my (supposed) disobedience?
~confused~
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26In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness.
We do not know what we ought to pray for,
but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
27And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit,
because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.
For a start, I'm a sgt with a stupid 'jack-knife', hence i'm supposed to be able to do more things than my fellow peers and do my tasks well in a smarter, more efficient way.
Yet somehow, things don't seem to work out as they are. Here's the list:
1) I'm blur
Think that's my biggest defect within me. My brain is just dull and I tend to do things in a long, roundabout way. I fail to see how a task can be done in a more obvious and easier way. For eg, when i scan through a list, i find a mistake on pg 2. I edit the mistake and print out the new list, only to find another mistake on pg 3. i edit that mistake and then find another mistake on pg 5... that sort of thing. Dumb right? my defense is that i'm tired out, cuz i did this at around 9pm. but hey, my good buddy was also doing his own stuff till that time and he's equally tired out as me. he asked why i didn't check through the entire thing 1st, edit at one shot and print at one shot? I was speechless, then just nodded my head and said, " oh yar hor.."
Yeah, think i'm not using enough of my brains. I mean, i'm certain i'm a smart person, but now my brain is just a sponge that absorbs info but can never utilise the knowledge that i have. my brain can't even think through the ways that i can complete tasks. yeah, my brain is just a sponge that is damn good at exams, but sux at doing other things. die man, how to survive when i work?
thankfully got my good buddy here who is observant and somehow knows everything that's going on. Sometimes I ask him how he knows, then he gives me the 'its-so-bloody-obvious' look or the 'i-thought-you-were-there-when-this-guy-told-us-about-it' look. Makes me wonder why I seem to miss out so many things. Gosh, i feel more like a liability than an asset, so inferior. Am I really so blur, or plain oblivious, or both????
2) Dunno What Everyone is Doing
Just like yesterday in the office, everyone was doing something useful and they KNEW what they had to do. For me, i just wandered around the office, wandering WHAT i had to do. It seems like I've finished most important tasks and there was nothing for me at the moment, but it can't be, cuz everyone else was doing something. Just went around wandering what I could do within my area of responsibility. But no leh, found nothing. Tried to think of the not so important stuff that i had always wanted to do, but couldn't think of it leh. Tried to see how I could help, but not so well-versed in the other areas of responsibility. Sigh just frustrated, cuz i was walking around like a man who has no instructions from his boss. I mean, I am, to a certain extent, a superior, yet I was just wandering around like an employee. you know how frustrating that is?
3) Bother about the wrong things
Yeah, ok, prob its because our priorities are different. But then, my good buddy seems to know the more important things to bother about, while i choose to bother about the superficial things. Sigh confused...
4) Too good a life last time
Yeah this is my 'retribution'. Led such a spoilt life when I was young.. Now come here, simple things like tearing scotch tape without a scissors also cannot do properly. Sigh so inadequate. Gotta really start doing things on my own..
Sigh... Just feel useless and inadequate at where I am now. Is this the punishment for my (supposed) disobedience?
~confused~
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26In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness.
We do not know what we ought to pray for,
but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
27And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit,
because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.
~Romans 8:26-27
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