Monday, July 31, 2006


Oh well... sat there during maths lecture trying to understand what beethoven was trying to teach about linear spazes.... but i literally wasted that hour... Gosh that was the most torturing hour ever...

Sigh so much things to worry about.. Uni apps, 3 best achievements, testimonials, mugging for prelims, catching up with tutorials, a-levels.. sigh so much to do...

buay tahan ah!!!

wanna cry ;(

Sunday, July 30, 2006



Saturday, July 29, 2006


But Before that, had to attend college day.. Suay ah, got arrowed by CK to attend cuz I came late for his tutorial. Grr!!!

I was seated at the extreme corner of the centre block, near the third floor entrance to LT1. haha nice quiet spot to do lots of things, like read deception point, sms, call pple, all behind the back of this teacher sitting in front of me. Lol

After the whole thing, we met miss wang and congratulated her on her 25 years of service to the college. Haha but I wonder if she is really happy about that? –ponders-
Zheng and I met gra-ce at j8. Had lunch there, then train down to suntec for the scholars choice preview. Quite disappointing, cuz very few organizations were present. No chance to shop around for scholarships.

The seminar quite ok lah… learnt a few tips on taking a great photo of you having the greatest time of your life:

1) Tilt your head to one side
2) Let it drop backwards
3) SMILE!!!

The next part of the seminar was quite meaningful, although the speaker was rather comical. Still, it served to remind us to choose our scholarships with a purpose. To know our higher calling and bear the responsibilities of being a scholar, ie to help the less fortunate while we are successful, else how can they break out of their vicious cycle and move on to achieve greater things?

Went arcade next!! After resting for bout 2 or 3 years, I decided to give crazy taxi another go!! Wah the joy of being crazy again felt damn shiok. Think I stayed on the machine for about half an hour to 40min, which was about half the time I used to spend on it when I was really pro… Not bad, earned about $19k, which gives me an Awesome license!!! Phew, played until I sweat all the way down to my pants. Saw this great pool just below the seam of my shirt. Had to cover that part for the remainder of the night ;)

Dinner at Swiss Culture was nice. Thot the girls were stupid by ordering chicken wings. I mean, hello!!! Chicken wings from a Swiss restaurant.. Might as well go hawker centre eat right??? Anywayz, me and john shared a mixed grill… Food quite nice.. Then had a nice chocolate fondue… totally destroyed gra-ce’s throat. And the bill totally destroyed my budget!

Ah but what the heck. After eating, we went back to challenge each other in Daytona… Wah the rest of them are noobs… I maintained second all the way. Think xinyan was taico while we played the beginner’s round. Just as time was up, he just zoomed past me at the last bend to become first… grr…

Ok then show off my pro skill at the bishi bashi machine.. not bad ah, my skill still quite good after all these years!!!

Oh well, its been a great day.. Hope you had a great day too Zheng!!! God bless ;D


Q: Why is the cow better than the pig?
A: Because it gives while it is still alive...

Friday, July 28, 2006

BeeZee Me

Ok very busy, so shall just give a brief overview of the week:

Monday, 24th July
Stayed back in school today to attend the UCAS talk. Haha thought the whole thing was really interesting, cuz the teachers were like real funny all the way, even when scolding. lol... haha when people were still streaming in at 5.15pm, mr purvis was like going in his scotish accent: "I can't wait here all day. There are drinks to be drunk and women to be loved!" Then mr sowden was cracking up lots of funny jokes along the way during the briefing. According to him, if you have heard of a particular UK university before, its bound to be good. Eg if you have heard of Oxford, then it must be good. If you haven't heard of University of Haddlesfield, then it probably is not so good. haha... then while going through Stamford Raffles' UCAS online application, good old Stamfold Raffles' security qns for UCAS: "What JC was named after me?" think you know the answer for that. Oh and good old Stamford Raffles only had 2 O-Levels (wonder how he got into RJ in the first place) and 2 A-Levels (like where can he go after this?) Impressive huh?

Tuesday, 25th July
Beethoven went crazy today. when she entered class, she started ranting about how the single maths people were going to kope LT1 for their extra lecture during the same time slot that she wants to use. then she also lamented about how she was thrown with linear spazes and has to 'clean up the mess'. "Haiz", she said to herself, "I started teaching Further maths 30 years ago well, and now I have to end it badly." Sigh feel sorry for her... guess she's really under stress to complete everything...

Grace, Chork and I went shopping round for Zheng's Bdae Gift. Haiz then along the way, silly chork had to be engrossed with all the eeyores at action city. I know that behind every smart, succesful guy is a little plush soft toy that puts him to sleep each night, but well... chork was like practically head over heels with the eeyores. dunno why, but i thot the eeyores looked quite ugly and inaccurate. hey eeyore has never smiled in any Pooh cartoon. Haha guess what he said on his blog was quite true.. When he's with soft toys, you can't distinguish him between a guy or a girl. haiz typical chork.. so kiddy...

Ok so in the end we got Zheng this book on sudoku. After that, went with gra-ce to go look for wristbands. Along the way, we bought Zheng his bdae card, which I thought was much better than what the kiddy guy wanted to get him. Won't say what it is, else your impression of him might just totally come crashing down ;)

Wednesday, 26th July
Last PE of the year, of my entire life!!! Sigh ended on a rather bad note though. Kind of a shouting match occured between guy and girls when we were forming teams. Then I guess morale just hit rock bottom... Haiz my team got thrashed 4-0 in the first game. Haiz we're noobs lah. Wanted to play the second match, or rather my last match for PE, but then i had to be a referee somewhere else, so yup, could only hope the class played on their best...

Oh well, other than that, there was the nyaa interview. i got lost while trying to find the place, cuz central mall consisted of a few blocks and many entrances. Guess I turned too quickly and entered the main square instead of seeing the chinese temple first. Wah panicked lah! Scared I would be late. Haha then asked for directions from this disney office. the lady behind the counter quite helpful lah. After walking one round around the entire block, I finally found that obscure little staircase that would bring me to the nyaa office. didn't have to wait very long before it was my turn. The interview was quite ok lah... phew at least I handled it well..

Watched Maggie and Me when I got home.. haha we recorded it on our new DVD recorder. wooh!! haha incidentally, the first episode was aired yesterday, and yesterday was the first day of the seventh month. so guess good old maggie had a reason for coming out today huh?

Thursday, 27th July
AMC was terrible. Easy questions dunno how to do. Haiz one phrase to describe myself: a maths student who cannot do maths!

Friday, 28th July
Stayed back to play asshole taiti.. Wah i was the king for the first few rounds while doing M10 tutorial. Then I got stuck at this question, then I started falling in the hierarchy and finally became an asshole!!! Wah rao suay ah...

Monday, July 24, 2006

linear spaces

tough topic this one... yupz hard time understanding it..

dunno if i should just give up this topic and salvage the others. haha but then beethoven say that if we give up linear spaces and give up complex numbers, we might as well give up further maths entirely. lol...

oh well, 3 hours of beethoven today. one more hour of beethoven tomorrow. spent like 45min doing one question on hypothesis testing. Wah rao... concept so chim one...

oh on a sidenote, stupid tagboard's screwed. Think the entire server went down, can't find it online anymore. So yup gotta find a replacement, so hang in there guys... any suggestions?

Friday, July 21, 2006

Just tired

Oh boy... Not much mood to do anymore work. I can literally feel myself suffocating under the great rush of stuff to do. The endless stack of prelim papers that now sit on my desk, the jaw-dropping number of tutorials that are trailing, the large amount of stress having to decide which uni to apply for, getting testimonials ready, personal portfolio, whatever, yada yada... wah seh can die ah...

Dunno lah... Like very tired. Just wanna take a break. Yet with every second spent on breaking( ie doing nothing) , the consequence of that wasted second will start snowballing, creating even greater pressure at the end. So on I go, dragging my tired self along the stressful road of the A-levels, struggling to complete those endless tutorials that keep coming and coming like a bullet train, knowing that each time I slow down, time still moves on ruthlessly, forcing you to trail behind even further. So you either catch up, or never be able to join the rest who are ahead of you...

Hmmm feeling dry these days... sigh... jong a tit taan

1 O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.
-Psalm 63:1

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Yo Ho!! Yo Ho!! A Screwed up life for me

came back home sick after watching pirates with kum. actually, think i was sick since monday. bad pain in the stomach, but thought it was because i wasn't eating the correct stuff, or not eating enough.

Went home feeling colder than usual. Mum confirmed it with a fever. Haiz. So got one day mc now... Hope I get well soon..

Then now the most screwed up thing is the fact that i may have to jeopardise either one of these 2 things in the coming months. 1) SATs.. 2) A-Levels... Well you see, the slack me chose to slack and not worry about anything about university applications for the past 7 months. Then suddenly, my parents said that going to UK was not a very good idea, cuz UK unis are not properly funded, better to go US. Perhaps that's why everything is still the same...

So that sent alarm bells ringing, and argh! more stress now.. Gotta study for prelims, a-levels, sats etc etc etc... Argh STRESS can't take it!!!

No wonder I'm ill.. sigh

oh for those of you who didn't catch the link abt the lame ac thing, here it is:


Yo Ho Yo Ho!
A pirate's life for me

Sunday, July 16, 2006

choices choices

the sudden dawning of the thought that my application for uni will be starting soon sort of frightened me. for a start, i dunno WHAT i wanna study, much less decide where to study... I have NO SATs, i have no idea what to do when the application process starts, i am thoroughly confused as whether to apply now or wait until i have my head botak for 2 years, or apply now and hope that they will reserve a place for me.

The other screwed up thing is also the best 3 achievements thing that MOE wants. Haiz dunno wat to write for that leh... damn scared...

Oh well.. woke up early to send geraldine off at the airport. hope you have a good time there studying ok? send some shots or something to my email. Yupz... email ah?

Saturday, July 15, 2006

My Kinda Saturday

Yeah! Today is MY kind of Saturday!!!

Had a good rest last night. Took my time to wake up, breakfast etc. Then took my time to do QT. Then just slowly do my 2 math tutorials for monday. No stress, just do as much as I can..

I also found time to devour quite a bit of my library book---- Dan Brown's Deception Point. An absolute good read! Keeps you stuck to it for long periods of time, and today was my chance to enjoy it, uninterrupted.

Had dinner at East Coast Park, with popo and yeye. Yup good thing we went early at 6pm so that we could find a place to sit. Half an hour later, and we would be snatching places already! Oh and the place that we had got lots of sea breeze. Shiok!

So disappointing! My favourite prawn mee stall closed already! Couldn't find the old man and his wife there. Hmm guessed they decided to retire. Yeah think they deserve a break, cuz mum and dad have been seeing them ever since I was in mum's tummy. ;)

Tried the wanton mee. Not bad lah.. Laksa from the old Roxy Theatre quite nice and thick too. Still, the old joy of eating a good bowl of dry prawn mee, together with oh luak, would be lost forever.......

Took a walk to look at the cable ski thing at the lagoon. Quite cool yeah? Just ski round and round and round and round. Studied how the dispatch and retract systems worked. Quite a simple mechanism lah really...

Sad thing is, the only few people using it were mainly ang mohs, with a few locals here and there. Other than that, no one else!! Think this thing is a real white elephant. Where;s the white elephant placards?

While walking back to the carpark, we saw this lone F-16 fighter jet hovering above us slowly, then it fired its boosters suddenly. Mum told me that it could have been a spare jet f0r the NE show at the Nat'l Stadium( you know the ndp for p5 kids?) , just in case some plane screw up, then this jet can take over.

Likewise, we also saw this chinook carrying the Singapore Flag near the CBD skyline. So nice view. Mum also said that they also had 2 chinooks, each with a flag. both would fly together until they reached the National Stadium. Then one would move in, the other just hover outside... Simple back up yeah?

To end of this sat, played bomberman with martin. trashed him like anything man... Haha noob ;p

Friday, July 14, 2006

tired and demoralised

Dunno lah.. Rather tired and discouraged.. Got back GP compre yesterday... 25.5/50. I thought I could have scored better, cuz I was rather confident while doing the paper. Now reality slowly sinks in, and the truth hurts...

Worse still, stayed back today to play cards, instead of doing up my eigenvector tutorial.. Well ok, granted that it is the end of the week, so relax a bit lah... We played bridge again lor... Sigh my brain wasn't working at all again. I mean, I was blur all the time, not knowing who my partner was, throwing out the trump card at the wrong time, causing my partner to lose, like a stumbling block to others. You can actually see the others doing mental calculations in their heads (esp chork) while they bid and when they play. hmm reminds me of pappy when we play at home.. An incredible mathematical mind, always thinking on the spot and working his brains..

Sigh... Wonder why I don't seem to follow after him, or them? Why is my brain just a sponge? able to absorb stuff and knowledge, that's it. Can't manipulate or THINK. Gosh, so demoralising. The basic function of the brain is to think, and yet I can do nothing except to shun away from it. Anywayz, kept losing all the way. Reminds me of Dick Su in Ready, Steady, Pom Pi Pi... JINXED!!! Even luck also not on my side... Haiz...

I also learnt that I'm a rather truthful person. Tried playing Bluff, but always get caught bluffing. Haiz you can see that Zheng and Chork are seasoned liars.. and can strategise somemore. As for a complete noob like me, with no experience, how to bluff? much less win... :/ Haiz guess its too bad for me that my childhood was just books, study and bo chap-ness. So here I am, suffering the consequences of being the most boring person, unable to use his brain for any purpose etc..

sigh.. tired and demoralised...


Oh well on a separate note, Peiyi's last minute plan to celebrate Geraldine's farewell pulled off :) Both of us discussed and confirmed it last night. Then there was the quick mad hop-a-bout to inform the GOH and other pple to join us..

So yup they came to church, including Sam and Steph =))) As it was Games night as well, we played badminton, table tennis etc. Great fun. Pastor Yap wsa also there, trying to promote this weekly friday night fellowship kinda thing through sports or something to invite your friends to church and play. Hey his badminton and table tennis quite pro one leh... Wah dun look down on him.... o_O

Taught Megan how to play table tennis too.. Wow she enjoyed it lots. Too bad she's a bit short for the table, else it would have been much easier for her. Played a game with Chris too. A good thing our skills were on par with each other, so we really enjoyed our game.

So when it was time, we asked Pastor Yap to say a prayer for Geraldine and then eat cake. Then we cheerio to each other and balik kampong

17 Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,

18 yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.

19 The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights.

- Habukkuk 3:17-19

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Deja Vu

Yesterday was Tuesday. Today is Tuesday. Gosh, got this weird feeling that history likes to repeat itself, too frequently for my liking. 2 Grp B lessons next to each other. And 3 phys tutorials!!! Eeek, grp b and phys overload!!

Actually ah, it has always been occuring this way what, right? Same routine every single week. Life's so mundane. EEeew the thought of having to undergo hard-core mugging for the next 4 months... that's scary enough :s

Oh well, got back phys. Super careless!!! SI unit for Magnetic flux density is TESLA lah!! Still, tyco me got one more mark for Phys, so i went up from 69% to 70%, or in alphabetical terms, from b to A. Yippee!! MY first A in the whole string of common tests!!! Oh got back 9233 on Monday. 60%=> B. hmmm thot i would do better, but well, carelessness.

I've resorted to staying back in skool (almost) everyday to mug, cuz if i go home, I'll SLEEP and SLACK and NOT do any work at all. Worse still, I just re-installed bomberman, so there's another hook of temptation there. Other than dosing for 10min just now, so far so good... Hope I don't go crazy or something ;)

To those going for o-level chi tml, wishing you the very best. Then again, the best is yet to be. No subtitles available yeah?

Monday, July 10, 2006

The Most BORING World Cup Finals

Think it was a good idea for me to have a nap before waking up for the match.. When I woke up, Kevin was already here, playing with Martin Atomic Bomberman. Haha woke up at round 1.10am, so went with pappy to go buy snacks...

Well, first time in my life that I ventured out at this weird time at night to go buy food. R.K was rather bustling. Still selling lots of prata here and there. Got 2 qusong for pappy.

Then suay ah, Macs was not open 24 hours today, so we had to drive all the way to the outlet at S'goon Central to go buy fries and nuggets. Then I forgot to ask for curry sauce to go with the nuggets. Haiz so blur...

Luckily by the time I got home, the match was just about to start, so we laid the table and started munching our stuff. Obviously, we bought too little, cuz we finished eating everything 10 mins into the game. Haha...

So ok on to the game itself. Henry went down at around the 8th min I think. Thot he would be out for good, like Owen. But he got in as quickly as he got out!!! Amazing, but true!!! Quite amusing to me actually.

Then got France scored the first goal within the first 10 min. But guess their defence rather sucky, cuz Italy equalised within the next 10 min. After that, it just got more and more boring lor. We could see that France players Henry and Ribudy were desparately trying to score on the Italian side, but 2 French VS 6 Italians+ a damn good goalkeeper => quite impossible to score! Haiz very sian lor. I was hoping someone would score the next goal, so that we wouldn't have to go into extra time and waste more time waiting for goals. Aiyah then the score had to stay as it was throughout the whole game, including extra time. Wah SBS AH!!! Think we dosed off through the extra time bit, waiting for penalty shoot-out to commence.

Then I guess Zidane did what was perhaps the most silly thing he could ever do in the last few minutes of his very last game. He had to get himself sent out of the game, because he couldn't control himself and header an Italian right at the chest. Gosh it must have hurt. You could see the shock on the other Italian players. Like what the toot lah, suddenly go and header someone like that. Quite un-sportsman like. Then the commentators were like criticising Zidane about how foolish he was to end his career with this form of humiliation. Haiz wonder what in the world he was doing. (shows Zidane Fleming's Right Hand Rule)

Ah hah... Now the penalty!!! France missed one, because the ball hit the top of the goal post and bounced to the ground just before the line; it never entered the goal region. Suay ah!!! Think that guy trying to imitate Zidane in the 1st goal, where Zidane's ball hit the top post and went in.

Actually, France was more or less doomed to lose the penalty, cuz Henry got substituted, and Zidane was sent off, so their 2 star-strikers were gone. How to win like that?

So it goes down in history:
Italy is the World Cup Champion for 2006!!!

Ok dang tired... think i'll go nap an hour! Then must chiong S6 liao. Wah the whole tutorial by tonight. Die man!!!

Saturday, July 08, 2006

2nd Last Farewell, Geraldine =)

Oh well, dear Geraldine's gonna go down under to study comp science. quite pro yeah?

So yup, joanna, chris, nick, aunty kah eng went to jumbo at the s'goon country club for dinner to have a 'farewell' sort of thing for geraldine. Met Uncle Loy Cheow and family there (oh wait, heng ern wasn't there).

Never knew Joanna hated prawns because they look like earthworms. No resemblance leh? The spread was quite ok lah. Had spastic conversations here and there. Chris wants to conquer the transport market. I say good!!! Cuz we could do with a bit more competition man!!!

Ok so after dinner, 5 of us hung out at Cafe Cartel to have dessert. Haha the da jie went to buy vodka from 7-11. thot I should stay away from it, cuz hey i'm young and, well, Chris has had bad memories of it, I think. Remember his back problem? So to keep myself satisfied, ordered a chocolate milkshake. Bad mistake though, cuz it was like 7 bucks, which was like almost the cost of the vodka and the cakes combined. The cakes had 50% discount cuz they wanted to sell it off fast. Haiz... should have been wiser and ask for water instead =(

Lol then we just talk more cock lah. just tock tock tock until like 11 plus. Tempted to take a bus back, but thot i'd walk up just for the fun of walking in the dead of night.

haha like so fast one of us suddenly going to disappear soon... Ok ok, yeah you'll be back every 3 months, so yup, don't think we'll miss you too much back here.. Hey but do remember us hor.. email email ah?

Study hard and score well, then come and help me design this.. ;)

Friday, July 07, 2006

Self- Righteousness VS Grace

Some lessons that I learnt after some stuff that happened last week.

I still remember this sermon by Pastor Kwan about 2 weeks ago. Think the topic was on "Self-Righteousness And Its Condemnation", taken from Luke 18:9-14. In a nutshell, it's a parable about this Pharisee who prayed about himself, like how good he was before God, and about a tax collector who pleaded with God for mercy.

I guess for me, there have been many instances when I have been rather judgemental about others and thought myself to be better than them. Ok, at least I don't make my judgements known to others openly, but still, who am I to judge? It's this sin of pride within me that has caused me to start elevating myself above others and think that I'm better than them. The point is, I'm actually deceiving myself, because I'm equally bad and wretched inside. To even think I'm better than everyone else, like woah, makes me even more wretched, but pride blinds me to it.

And yet, though I'm more wretched than anyone else, Jesus Christ still chose to love me as I am, UNCONDITIONALLY. Now I truly understand why salvation belongs to our God, and it was never what we do that can bring us to heaven. For you see, we humans are just sinful from birth (Psalm 51:5) and even when we think we are righteous enough when we compare ourselves to others, we fall and sin. You can try and be as righteous as you can, but trust me, you'll somehow fall/sin inevitably.

Knowing that we silly humans can NEVER be holy and righteous enough to enter heaven (Romans 3:23), God chose to send His one and only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, to be the Sacrificial Lamb for us. That is, we do not need to follow the old system of giving sacrifices for our sins----- Christ IS the Lamb sacrificed for us. And this Lamb is rather 'special', for all of our sins (past, present, future) are laid on this Lamb, so that, based on the old system, our sins are imparted onto the Lamb, and we ourselves are now considered to be free from sin, and hence we become righteous.

Thus we see that it is really none of our efforts or works that can earn us a place in heaven, for:

1) We are sure to fall and sin at some point of our lives
2) The sacrifice was provided by GOD, NOT us. All we did was to accept God's gift of the Sacrificial Lamb (who had to die because of all our sins that were imparted on Him, as commanded under the old system)

Ephesians 2:8-9 sums it up well. That salvation is not by one's works, so that no one can boast about his salvation or compare himself to others and say, "I'm better than you!"

Guess we should continually remember to always confess our sins and beg God for mercy and forgiveness with a sincere and humble heart, just like the tax collector. Never should we be proud, just because of our works for God. Don't forget, that 1) we are still wretched; 2) by thinking you are better, you have already sinned.

Christ says: " For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled (or abased in other versions), and he who humbles himself will be exalted." (Luke 18:14b)

At the end of it all, the Pharisee prayed a very nice and eloquent prayer, but he never entered the prescence of God because of his pride. The tax collector, who humbled himself and prayed sincerely from his heart, found God and received justification. He went home with peace in his heart.

Haha bit long argument so to speak. Hope you lasted all the way to here.

May the Lord bless you as He continues to reveal to you more understanding about His great gift of salvation that's so freely available, thanks to His great love for us.

God bless ya!! =)


13"But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, 'God, have mercy on me, a sinner.'
- Luke 18:13

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Improvement!!! Err... maybe not

Went through the rest of the Chem common test today. Haha I was able to gain one mark from the last part of question C3.. The one which asks us to state the assumptions. Apparantly mine sounds right, but it seems like I didn't get a mark. So Chee Keong 'assumed' that the marker forgot to mark that part and gave me an extra mark, so my overall percentage went up from 51% to 52%. Like wow, still a D. (big deal... sigh). But I think jiang zhe even worse, cuz he miss one mark to being the ONLY A in the class. Then he tried to argue that conservation of charge is equivalent to maintaining the same emf, as the work done per unit charge remains the same, so emf must remain the same also what. Chee Keong of course said, "Too chim lah!" and shrugged him off. Lol

Oh and yeah yesterday, Mdm Ho gave us a breakdown of the grades for GP. Haiz only one A2 (must be Yuxin lah), then round 6 B3s, 6 B4s etc.. no one failed essay, but compre had 5 failures. Then the media question was a suicide question, and yes, I committed suicide. Die ah!! Essay screw again... =(

On a happier note, no phys tutorial today, cuz teacher not around (prob watch too much world cup. lol) and no phys 's', so ya lah end school 3 hours early, so go home early and slack lor. haha

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

What a way to start again...

Received Chem during recess. Didn't know Chee Keong was serious when he said he would go up to the staff room to get our scripts. Haiz... Dropped one grade to 51%. Haha just pass man!!!

Then the next depressor was Phys MCQ. Haiz 18/30. Ok lah granted that i only had one or 2 careless mistakes, but quite bad enough leh. If I didn't make those careless mistakes, then I should have been fine with 22/30. Haiz typical me.

The final suicide pill came when we got back F Maths. But hey, I maintained my old grade. MY 4th E!!! Whee... standard didn't really drop for the past 4 tests since last year. Anywayz, think I'm used to getting an E all the way... Wonder if I'm destined to get E always. EEEE-yucks...

oh well, hope the rest will be ok. 'fingers crossed' ;)

Monday, July 03, 2006

My Last and Final Youth Day

So yeah... Went to the airport this morning to send Pappy off to Chiangmai. But before he went in, we took a ride to see the Budget Terminal. Gosh couldn't they come up with a nicer name? Like Terminal 4 or something, not Budget lah.

Ok.. As expected, the interior of the warehouse looks very.. erm... spacious and bare... There's Han's at the corner though, so good place to have lunch. Beware, bring your earplugs, cuz with ample space in the terminal, kids are bound to run about like mad chickens and scream their head off as they play catching. Their screams resonate will well in the warehouse, so you may find those earplugs useful.. hehe

Had char kway teow for lunch before going back.. Hmm haven't eaten that for a long time, so yeah...

Gosh on the MRT back, felt that great sense of depression and like... wastedness. Yeah.. My last Youth Day ever in my entire life as a school-going guy, spent at home, rotting away. Sigh my youth is fleeting, but at least can still make use of whatever's left right?

Then my hp rang... Thot it would be my mum asking me if I had any plans for the day, or someone just asking me about what tutorial to do tml... But no, it was an invitation to go play pool and bowl. Like wow, i was whining just now, and then here's my chance to have fun now. So I agreed and met up with him..

Haha i owned him at pool. Hmm thought he was as good as me though.. Haha the last game was like a real tyco game. I shot once and 3 balls went in. Ouch one of them was his... Hmmm...

Then for once, in my dunno how many games of bowling, I scored above 100 points!!! Yup 102 to be exact!!! So happy with myself. But then started deproving on the 2nd game. Then picked up again on the 3rd game. Yay!!!! so 2nd game scored 85 and 3rd game scored 94. Ooo wee... Still remember last time, I always throw the ball into the longkang (drain), and that's where it always landed. Never before, could I go up beyondf 80. But today was my lucky day!!! hehe Am i pro or wat?

Had dinner at Chomp Chomp... Wah finally get a chance to eat in there. Hokkien Mee was shiok! Wash it down with sugarcane juice.. Nice combi!!!

After a visit to the bank, both of us had a slow walk home. Sorrie ah, had to leave you outside my house and make you walk the rest of the way back.

Well well guess i got wat i wanted for my last youth day. Just playing and enjoying my youth before I move on. And it would not have been possible without you, my dear friend, Jeremy =)

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Walking on the Spiritual Highway

sigh... it was a hard decision for me, although the choice was OBVIOUS!! I mean its outright wrong, and yet you still wanna hold on to it. Of course, I have to agree that it makes life so much easier with it around. But for some reason, my conscience sort of pricked me real hard, and it really affected me so much. Couldn't have a decent conversation with God. I mean that's real bad lah...

Can hear Him telling me not to be a hypocrite and let go of it, but for a few days i still refused. And yeah, this spiritual baggage was slowing me down. I had to get rid of it, otherwise I would suffer even more! Otherwise, I could not come to Him just as I am. I have to enter His prescence as a Pharisee, a hypocrite. Yucks!!! Another scary thing that struck me was that He could take away so much more better things, all just because of my little act of disobedience.

Ok so i xia ding jue xing, must get rid of it tonight, else i'll suffer even more. The prompt comes out: "Leave some files on it for future use?" No get rid of it totally!!! I don't wanna associate myself with it anymore!!!

Now its gone! Hmm the feeling that i lost something useful sinks in, but hey, that relief of my heart! What can be beat that? Yes I feel free again!!!

Walking on the spiritual highway with my Saviour is better than lugging my spiritual baggage on the B-class road.

22 But Samuel replied:
"Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
as much as in obeying the voice of the LORD ?
To obey is better than sacrifice,
and to heed is better than the fat of rams.
- 1 Samuel 15:22

Saturday, July 01, 2006

No free drinks? Drink beer!!!

Haha crashed parade today... Got hold of the admin posts, so congrats to everyone of you on your positions in admin. Eh must work hard ah... The real fun will only start when your Sec 1s come in.. Till then, keep looking out for one another kaez?

Got this cool CD of oldies from Yeye.. Yay got Mambo Italiano (tune of Char Siew Bao) and Seasons In The Sun. Just what I have been looking for...

After lunch at Yeye's place, we went to taka to see the Singapore Food Festival. Saw Singapore's makan guru, KF Seetoh, there as well. A bit of a flop actually, cuz it started at 3.30pm in the sweltering heat. All of us were sweating like mad dogs in a chinese restaurant. then think got some communication error between the organisers and the shops selling food. You see, official guests (ie pple like us) have a card that allows us to go get free samples here and there. However, some shops refused to give us the free samples cuz apparantly they were not told, or were told only on the day itself, so they refused to give us our freebies. Drinks stall especially, still selling at normal price. So in the end, after we got our food, Mum dropped by the Tiger Beer counter which was giving away free beer. So yeah, we drank beer instead. Mum drank one whole cup herself and she thoroughly enjoyed it. Bottoms up!!!

Ok then just kept gambling the whole night, but lost quite a bit at the end... Haiz its all on luck isn't it?