Cool Belt

yay... got this nice new belt from aunty kah eng today. think this should go well with my jeans, unlike the stupid $2 belt from daiso.. i mean its nice lah, but this new one is definitely more suited for jeans..

then she also treated my ss class for lunch at this restaurant at tmcc.. wah the food was great. i liked my fried ice cream lots.. wonder how they fry it while still keeping the ice cream inside cold.. must have skill...

i love my belt.. and new year is coming!!

Another class gathering

sheesh my post titles are getting stale and stagnant. can't think of anything more creative.. sigh

anyway, as the post title suggests, had another so1d class gathering at wang kan's house. pretty nice place... and his room is so much neater than mine!! gosh gotta do something about the mess i'm living in every weekend.. =(

so ok, not many pple turned up.. just jiashun, ms goon, zhaowei, zheng and i. modest number, but still enough for texas hold 'em!! the mtv was pretty distracting, so didn't have the full impact of the game.

had canadian pizza for dinner. think the raw chilli with bbq sauce and cheese in the singapura special was a poisonous combination, cuz i caught the L.S syndrome and had to stink up wang kan's toilet. oops...

after dinner, we just sat down to talk cock about uni. never knew js and wk were so into economics. wah js even knows lots about econs in the uk... sheesh what am i doing man? like wat zheng said, i feel so useless reading all the novels that i'm reading now.

anywayz, i met up with chork after we left wk's house. passed him his christmas present: pink ankle socks!! yup you didn't read it wrongly. why those? well, he loves pink right? and yeah, think he needs to move on from the white socks he's been wearing since pri skool, right chork? haha hope you like it...

Merry Christmas

And a Happy New Year!!!

plans and miracles

the plan today was to meet up with what was left of so1d for kbox. so ok, arrived at somerset mrt at 11.30am, on time. Of course, only ms goon was the 1st to arrive. she told me that the rest would be coming late, either at 1pm, 2pm or 4pm... 2+1 words came to my mind: "kena conned again!" sheesh shouldn't have bothered coming on time.. should have stayed at home, play some texas hold 'em before coming over..



oh well, so in the end, only 4 of us (grace, weijia, esther and i) walked over to cine to have lunch. we settled on xin wang on the 3rd floor. since i ate a baked rice like just 2 days ago, i decided to whack a pork chop instead. pretty ok lah... to me, baked rice is still the best dish ever. yup!!!



we just sit there, talk cock, laugh at each other lor.. how each of them are failing C++.. come to think of it, what's the relevance of learning C++, when there are other better languages to play about out there in the IT world? halfway through, got a bit bored, so i used grace's phone to tape weijia eating for 5 min... no significance, but weijia just kept whining why i have something against her... lol



arcade nxt, but the arcade at cine so small... me and grace first tried this stupid shoot the mutated jungle freaks.. these are the kind of games i hate, frankly speaking. all the giant spiders crawling all over you, trying to eat you up.. yucks.. then nxt was daytona. can never beat esther, but prob because my car's manual transmission got problem... can't shift to 4th gear on time, and the stick can't go to 2nd gear. screwed up car...



went to kbox after flying an aeroplane. just sing sing sing lor... got a bit sian after some time.. dunno how chork was able to sing till 4am last night and come back for another kbox shot.. like he's addicted to it or sth.. must get him a cold turkey treatment.. wah haha...



left halfway to go to church... told uncle loy cheow that i would be half an hour late for sunday school. but then, when i arrived, i realised that the class was cancelled, since other than me, NO ONE else came... sad huh? wonder why our priorities are so screwed up... sigh...



the singing by the kids was most wonderful.. they're real pros. think they should be fine for tomorrow's christmas carolling service... haha =)


anywayz, went to my grandma's house for dinner to celebrate their 60th wedding anniversary. Woah so many years together. Saw a photo of them at their 50th wedding anniversary (when i was just 9 years old.. hah). They haven't changed much, other than the fact that grandpa is on a wheel chair now. Gotta really thank and praise God for keeping them together for 60 years. Not easy you know, having to raise 5 children so that i can have so many cousins to talk to. haha..

you know, this celebration was nearly impossible. i still remember how my grandpa fell off the weighing scale last year, causing him to be warded in the icu for close to a month. brain haemorrhage i think. Though the fall has caused him to be wheel-chair dependent, i still really wanna thank God that he's still alive and can still remember who we all are. usually, when you fall and strike the back of your head on the ground first, i believe you'll have some form of amnesia. Think you're more likely to get it if you're 84 years old in a more severe form. (haha biologists out there, correct me if i'm wrong. =) )

If anyone asks to see a miracle, i'll just tell them to look at my grandpa; he is THE miracle..

Conned the warlords

Went for the officers' retreat at ac today. supposed to start at 1.30pm, so i was there on time i guess, lugging all my barang barang for staying over at the boarding skool. caught with a few pple, like mr lai and kiwi... Sheesh, haven't seen kiwi for such a long time, since the last enrollment in march... he's really slim sia... haha

anywayz, we didn't really start till about 2.30pm, waiting for everyone else to gather slowly. Then we started with reports on how the past year has been for the various cohorts. struggling to keep awake throughout, cuz well, these stuff didn't really concern me, since i haven't been at parades for some time now. so just listen to everyone else voice their concerns, see mr ng shoot arrows here and there. haha

thought we would have a chance after dinner to have some 'spiritual time', like just spend time worshipping together or something.. but well, we went through the workplan for next year instead. lol... so i just sit there and listen lor... discuss discuss till about 9, which was time for us to go for the warlords at vivo. so yup, no time to sort of affirm one another... hmmm maybe that would be meant for tomorrow.. but well, mr ng said that since all the 2008 appointments and workplan have been confirmed, then there's no more other program until the potluck at 5.30pm tomorrow.. ie to say, the retreat is over, and well, no point staying over... (come to think of it, seems like i was the only idiot prepared to stay over.. sigh so gullible)

when i heard that, 2 words came to my mind: "kena conned!" haha... so i lugged my barang barang along with me to vivo and watched the warlords... quite a typical chinese tragedy like huang2 jing1 jia3. the main characters become brothers first, then kill each other in the end... haha so typical... wonder if jay chou sang any song for this show. lol

and wow, the show ended at midnight, the last train out of vivo was at 11.15pm... thot i would be kinda stuck there, but thankfully, pappy offered to drive all the way there to pick me up... so nice of him...

thank God for such loving parents...

Bum bum bum around

wah today was pretty fruitful.. for once, i woke up early on my own at 7.30am and went to jog!!! Bit slow then what i could when i was sec 3, but, hey, i managed to drag myself out of bed didn't i? What's more, I could do the monkey bar one bar at a time.. Whee now the time i take to clear the bar is significantly faster than my previous times. haha learnt something great this time round. now just need to continue practising...

met up with popo and yeye at plaza sing, then go buy movie ticks to watch nat'l treasure: book of secrets at the old cathay... then met up with dad to go eat lunch at the malay stall along zion road that sells ge-rate (great) beef rendang. Nice sia.. We went to jalan jalan at great world city, looking for a nice pair of casual shoes for me.. saw this pretty colourful diesel shoe.. pity that the front was a bit too narrow; not too suitable for my wide feet =( so in the end, we didn't buy anything there...

ok so we drove back to the old cathay to watch nat'l treasure. The steps to unlock the treasure were really good.. makes you wanna be part of the treasure hunting group... other than that, pretty average show lah... bit of laughs here and there, but overally good.. i'll give it a 3 out of 5.

met up with gay sim after the show.. haha he so funny, come meet me in rj pe attire... like aiyoyo, that patriotic?

so we bummed around suntec city and marina square, doing some christmas shopping. then we did our own gift exchange. I bought him this cool, nice tee-shirt with those kind of 'double layerings' at the collar and the sleeves, and he got me what i wanted from hmv: the essential Billy Joel!!! Yippeee!!! But wah, it costs $24.95, but comes with 2 cds, so pretty worth it i guess. wonder why i saw it as $14.95 the other time... cock-eye lah...haha..

we hanged around hmv looking for our own stuff. found the 'enchanted' soundtrack!!! Wah the songs were beautiful.. think its a better choice compared to alvin and the chipmunks. can't really bare listening to these animals squealing away.. haha.. gee i really hope i can get the 'enchanted' soundtrack soon [hint hint ;) ]

anywayz, going for a 12th coy retreat over the weekend... haha do hope i'll be able to make full use of the time to seek God about my decision on returning there nxt year...

improvement

hmm things seem to be getting better this week... don't have that same dreaded feeling i feel each day... the feeling of inadequacy.

anywayz, Christmas is coming near. and i'm now on block leave!!! Woo hoo... so if anyone wanna call me out, now's the time yeah? ;)

watched enchanted again last week with jkum... hehe really enjoyed the singing once more.. can't wait to get my hands on the soundtrack, then can throw it into my ipok..

speaking of which, i happened to see the new ipok touch.. WAH! so nice, so cool, so pretty. all the cosmetic features in the ipok touch are just so cool.. and yes, you can watch youtube on the thing too, since the touch also has a wireless modem attached to it. time for an upgrade? neh, don't think so.. still love my good ol' ipok photo. haha... still haven't used 9GB of the thing yet, so waiting to rip more albums when they start coming in...

haha as always, since Christmas is here, i always like to show the great parody of Christmas.. hope you enjoy laughing at it, just as much as I have enjoyed watching it... ahaa



The 12 Pains of Christmas
The first thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Is finding a Christmas tree

The second thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree

The third thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Hangovers
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree

The fourth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to
Sending Christmas cards
Hangovers
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree

The fifth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Five months of bills!
Sending Christmas cards
Hangovers
Rigging up the lights
And finding a Christmas tree

The sixth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Facing my in-laws
Five months of bills!
Oh, I hate those Christmas cards!
Hangovers
Rigging up these lights!
And finding a Christmas tree

The seventh thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
The Salvation Army
Facing my in-laws
Five months of bills!
Sending Christmas cards
Oh, geez!I'm tryin' to rig up these lights!
And finding a Christmas tree

The eighth thing at Christmas that such a pain to me:
I WANNA TRANSFORMER FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!
Charities,
And whataya mean "YOUR in-laws"?!?
Five months of bills!
Oh, making out these cards
Honey, get me a beer, huh?
What, we have no extension cords?!?
And finding a Christmas tree

The ninth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me
Finding parking spaces
DADDY, I WANT SOME CANDY!!!!
Donations!
Facing my in-laws
Five months of bills!
Writing out those Christmas cards
Hangovers!
Now why the hell are they blinking?!?!?
And finding a Christmas tree

The tenth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me:
A mother:"Batteries Not Included"
No parking spaces
BUY ME SOMETHIN'!!!
Get a job, ya bum!
Oh, facing my in-laws!
Five months of bills!
Yo-ho, sending Christmas cards
Oh, geez, look at this!
One light goes out, they ALL go out!!!
And finding a Christmas tree

The eleventh thing of Christmas that's such a pain to me:
Stale TV specials
"Batteries Not Included"
No parking spaces
DAD, I GOTTA GO TA BATHROOM!!
Charities!
She's a witch...I hate her!
Five months of bills!
Oh, I don't even KNOW half these people!
Oh, who's got the toilet paper, huh?
Get a flashlight...I blew a fuse!!
And finding a Christmas tree
The twelfth thing of Christmas that's such a pain to me:
Singing Christmas carols
Stale TV specials
"Batteries Not Included"
No parking?!?
WAAAAAAAAAAH! WAAAAAAAAAAH!
Charities!
Gotta make 'em dinner!
Five months of bills!
I'm not sendin' them this year, that's it!
Shut up, you!
FINE! YOU'RE SO SMART, YOU RIG UP THE LIGHTS!!!
And finding a Christmas tree

Something to ponder on

5Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older.
All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because,
"God opposes the proud
but gives grace to the humble."
6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

ok i'm sorry

to my dear buddy,

ok i admit, you were right all along. No one would really give a damn about what time we return, or whether we return or not. I'm sorry for making you travel all the way from the west to the east, and for making you leave your home sweet home at such an early time, when there wasn't a need to do so.

Sorry lah, just too over-paranoid. Christmas is just around the corner, and i just don't want anything to happen to any of us. Guess my over-paranoidness is my weakness. hope you understand that...

forgive me won't you?

frustrated; inadequate

that's 2 words to describe my past week. Simply put, I feel as though i'm a class lower than all my other colleagues in my office.

For a start, I'm a sgt with a stupid 'jack-knife', hence i'm supposed to be able to do more things than my fellow peers and do my tasks well in a smarter, more efficient way.

Yet somehow, things don't seem to work out as they are. Here's the list:

1) I'm blur
Think that's my biggest defect within me. My brain is just dull and I tend to do things in a long, roundabout way. I fail to see how a task can be done in a more obvious and easier way. For eg, when i scan through a list, i find a mistake on pg 2. I edit the mistake and print out the new list, only to find another mistake on pg 3. i edit that mistake and then find another mistake on pg 5... that sort of thing. Dumb right? my defense is that i'm tired out, cuz i did this at around 9pm. but hey, my good buddy was also doing his own stuff till that time and he's equally tired out as me. he asked why i didn't check through the entire thing 1st, edit at one shot and print at one shot? I was speechless, then just nodded my head and said, " oh yar hor.."

Yeah, think i'm not using enough of my brains. I mean, i'm certain i'm a smart person, but now my brain is just a sponge that absorbs info but can never utilise the knowledge that i have. my brain can't even think through the ways that i can complete tasks. yeah, my brain is just a sponge that is damn good at exams, but sux at doing other things. die man, how to survive when i work?

thankfully got my good buddy here who is observant and somehow knows everything that's going on. Sometimes I ask him how he knows, then he gives me the 'its-so-bloody-obvious' look or the 'i-thought-you-were-there-when-this-guy-told-us-about-it' look. Makes me wonder why I seem to miss out so many things. Gosh, i feel more like a liability than an asset, so inferior. Am I really so blur, or plain oblivious, or both????

2) Dunno What Everyone is Doing
Just like yesterday in the office, everyone was doing something useful and they KNEW what they had to do. For me, i just wandered around the office, wandering WHAT i had to do. It seems like I've finished most important tasks and there was nothing for me at the moment, but it can't be, cuz everyone else was doing something. Just went around wandering what I could do within my area of responsibility. But no leh, found nothing. Tried to think of the not so important stuff that i had always wanted to do, but couldn't think of it leh. Tried to see how I could help, but not so well-versed in the other areas of responsibility. Sigh just frustrated, cuz i was walking around like a man who has no instructions from his boss. I mean, I am, to a certain extent, a superior, yet I was just wandering around like an employee. you know how frustrating that is?

3) Bother about the wrong things
Yeah, ok, prob its because our priorities are different. But then, my good buddy seems to know the more important things to bother about, while i choose to bother about the superficial things. Sigh confused...

4) Too good a life last time
Yeah this is my 'retribution'. Led such a spoilt life when I was young.. Now come here, simple things like tearing scotch tape without a scissors also cannot do properly. Sigh so inadequate. Gotta really start doing things on my own..

Sigh... Just feel useless and inadequate at where I am now. Is this the punishment for my (supposed) disobedience?

~confused~
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26In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness.
We do not know what we ought to pray for,
but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
27And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit,
because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.

~Romans 8:26-27

off is almost gone

have pretty mixed feelings about the off i've taken so far...

pretty happy about it cuz i really got to sleep and recover all the sleep debt that i owe. just basically pugging around each day feels great. of course, i'm now more conscious of my flabby arms and weak knees, with almost zero stamina. haiz always wanted to go out and just do some running, but somehow never got the chance to do so. always wake up at 9.30am each day. by that time, the sun is out and well, not very good to chiong when its so hot right?

pretty sian cuz i just couch potato myself at home most of the time, mugging for that darn sat... wanna go out and energise myself with friends, but well, they're either not free, or sometimes, i just dun feel like disturbing a few, cuz hey, we're now worlds apart doing our own stuff. have that premonition that it may get really awkward if we meet up again to 'catch-up'. anywayz, catch-up is just to eat, say how are you, prob watch a movie if there's time, then that's bout it... actually, dun mind doing a lot more like just cycling, playing soccer? but well, to some others, its just too troublesome and leh chey (or is it just me?)

sorry ramblings again. gosh I can't believe I spent this entire weekend rotting at home, doing nothing constructive at all. sigh i really should have gone out with some friends...

cranky self again

getting cranky again...

thought of going to east coast park early this morning to do some good quality reading. suggested that to mum, who promptly replied, "What about your SAT? Are you going to set aside time for it?" sheesh, that put me off immediately. like i know you care, but you don't have to remind me again right? like this is the freakin 3rd time i'm doing sat.. do until i damn sian... anywayz, not much chance for me to have that sudden desire to go to east coast in the morning.

ok nvm, went to fetch pappy from some old cat high boys gathering from turf city, then went to bt timah plaza to bum around at the ntuc finest... dunno lah, seems like another normal ntuc, with just a few imported stuff and a bit high class. guess the prices for normal stuff also pretty high, compared to the other normal ntuc outlets huh...

basically, just stoned at home for the remainder of the afternoon.. switched btw mugging sat, reading my library book and sleeping and reading my bible. haiz, how time seems to fly so fast. really frustrated to suddenly realise that twenty min have gone past when it seems only ten min have gone by. hmph fast-paced society.

thot of calling kum out for dinner, but he not very free... dunno who else to call leh, so in the end, once again, the family guy goes out with his family.

felt weird walking through orchard... along the streeets, you see many grps of young pple hanging around with their pals, bumming around, having dinner together. you don't see a lot of kids walking around with their parents at this time of the day. felt really out of place, esp at the manhattan fish market at plaza sing. the tables around ours were filled with youngsters just having a good dinner together, something that i haven't had for a long time now. plus, with frizzled, unkempt hair, sloppy shirt, and a brother trying to teach me how to cut fish properly, i felt super out of place. gosh i just wanted to siam from the place as fast as i could.

throughout the whole time, my brother would be saying all the bad things about dad when they were in australia together. strange huh, how a father-and-son trip that was meant to bond father and son together resulted in father and son hating each other even more. gosh, makes me cringe and feel even more frustrated.

how not to be cranky?

if only reality was this enchanted

wanted to watch 'lions for lambs' at the cinema, but sadly, it was not screening anymore. so instead, we watched 'enchanted'..

typical disney cartoon in the opening scene. the singing was wonderful, just like any normal fairy tale. think disney did a great job in combining the real world with the world of fantasy, esp the scene in which Giselle started singing in central park and everyone in the park just got in the entire act together, just like another great disney performance, with song and dance.

didn't want to leave the show, cuz that would mean returning straight to reality, where problems are solved through arguments, under-cutting, back-stabbing, rather than just singing a song.

now if only what they do in fairy tales can be applied to real life; just sing and your problems are solved!!!

oh well, dream on.....

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(Giselle/Amy)When you meet this someone
who is meant for you
Before two can become one
there's something you must do
(Woodland Creatures)
Do you pull each other's tails?
Do you feed each other seeds?
(G/A)[Laughs] No, There is something sweeter everybody needs.
I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss
And a prince, I'm hoping, comes with this
That's what brings ever-aftering so happy
That's the reason we need lips so much
For lips are the only things that touch
So to spend a life of endless bliss
Just find who you love through true love's kiss

Ahahahaha Ahahahaha Ahahahahaha
(Woodland Creatures) Ahahahaha Ahahahaha Ahahahahaha
She's been dreaming of a true love's kiss
And a prince, she's hoping, comes with this
That's what springs ever-afterings so happy
That's the reason we need lips so much
For lips are the only things that touch

(G/A)So to spend a life of endless bliss
Just find who you love through true love's kiss
(Edward/James)You're the fairest maid I've ever met
You were made
(G/A) to finish your duet
(Together)
And in years to come we'll reminisce
(E/J)How we came to love
(G/A)And grew and grew love

(Together)Since first we knew love through True Love's Kiss!

yay T3!!!

yippeee... today got a chance to visit the new T3 with mumsy. woah, the place is really nice and beautiful. they must have spent a hell lot of money to wayang the whole place so nicely. so many lifts, so much glass.

the inside was pretty impressive. seems like they adopting the US idea on the gate holding room.. now, instead of 1 or 2 gates to a holding room, its not 4 gates to a holding room. so its nice big sprawling on the inside. yup...

think the disappointing thing was the skytrain ride from t2 to t3. haha had lots of expectations about it, but well, nothing much leh. the train just moves so slowly and doesn't really speed a lot, unlike the old one.

speaking of trains, i've gotta sit on this one:

~ALL ABOARD!!!~

lol

Stupid + lousy= me

yeah man... feel dumb about the way i'm handling lots of the overlays today. Don't even know how to roll up a roll of talc nicely; waste so much paper just to create a checklist that i can do on excel and print onto one bloody piece of paper; why did i bother to label all the talcs SO SO specifically... i mean, in the end, just give out anyone of the same title to the big guys is still same what right?

oh well, my brain is like totally disabled i think. getting more and more blurer and stupid as the days go by. gosh should really sleep early one fine day.

played a bit of frisbee today, cuz hq got some sports day crap for those staying back in camp. played frisbee with the support guys.. so it was random support guys VS mortar. In the 1st match, my team just thrashed mortar like watever. But 2nd game, we were close, but lost to mortar. pretty fun to play with these guys lah. think most of them jc batch like me.. oh well, too bad i won't be able to join them for long.

wonder how the guys in brunei are doing. alpha and those going from hq left on mon; charlie and support left yesterday. haha i was at the airport yesterday actually to send ah q off to melbourne. too bad lah, can't stay on long enough to send the charlie guys off. anywayz, hope they have a meaningful time there.

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History tidbit
The world's first A380 landed in Singapore today!!! Wow wow wee yeah!!!

you wish everything in life were free

aiyaya!!! checked my payslip today! They minus off 86 bucks for medical co-payment!!! Sian!!! By right, can get 1000+ thx to back-pay, then minus the co-payment, plus all the other unimportant stuff, can only get 900+... pfff

sian ah

young guy among the old folks

anyone knows what an MRI is? Its magnetic resonance imaging, the use of a nuclear magnetic resonance spectrometer to produce electronic images of specific atoms and molecular structures in solids, especially human cells, tissues, and organs.

That's what dr lo recommended for me so that he could get a closer look at my knee. Sheesh, didn't know he would go to this kind of extent.

Left camp at around 8am, immediately after 1st parade, w/out anytime for breakfast. So poor me set on the no 2 bus all the way with a growling stomach. hmph tried to sleep, but couldn't leh. think i woke up again with a bad headache. Haiz.

When i got to sgh, they asked me to change into this gown for radiology. haha its just the gown and your shoes (plus your underwear) talk about the fashion man... walked out of the changing room feeling quite funny, cuz the gown was meant for aunties, not for young gd-looking shuai ges like yours truky.. xp

as i was waiting, i noticed that i was the youngest patient there. everyone one else was either a senior citizen or middle-aged. made me start to wonder why in the world i'm here lor. Only old pple go for these kind of checks and such.. What bout me? Feeling old as well.

Ok so after waiting for close to 1.5 hours (dun forget i haven't had breakfast, and lunch time was soon), those slow pokes finally called me in. Honestly, I thought it was gonna be some normal x-ray shoot... until i saw this damn big machine sitting in front of me. gosh its that kind of scanning system in which you slot your body into the machine. woah felt scared. worse still, they gave me a shower cap and ear plugs (cuz it might get a bit loud). my heart was racing. how bad could it get...

the feeling was kind of weird when they slotted my body into the machine. don't know if the machine would shoot some labour or something at my knee, causing me to jump or something. worse, the doctor attending to me said that it would be 40min long and i had to keep my knee still throughout.. :o

actually, once the thing started, it just churned a few loud beeps and random sounds. didn't feel anything at all. couldn't sleep, cuz the thing was pretty loud..

when the bill came, my jaw dropped... Total cost: $692 smackaroonees!!! sheesh damn ex.. thankfully can claim all the way ah, else my one month pay can't support me seah...

went for lunch with pappy at don. mmm the best bulgogi beef rice can be found at DON Noodle Bistro at Tanglin Mall. yup...

rushed back to camp after that to move on with life....

Leave woes and a wasted leg

yeah, when i checked the amount of leave i had for the remainder of the year last week, i was shocked that i had only a meagre 3 days left. like, wth!!! dunno why my bmt coy took off 8 days of my leave, when my oc promised at least 1 day off. plus, other pple from other coys only had 5 days subtracted. grrr so unfair and screwed up!!!

anywayz, highlighted this problem to my DY today.. of course, he trusted me, the truthful, honest spec ;p , and gave me 3 days off... So yay, I'm on par with everyone else. YESH!!!

went to see my specialist yesterday, after ops audit... tried to sleep on the no 2 bus all the way there, but it wasn't as comfortable as taking a 74 from skool to macritchie, interestingly. got off the bus slightly groggy, but well, had an appt to make.

so yup, since dr lo was busy, another one of the specialists came in to see me. He did a quick measure of my thighs and realised that my right quadriceps was only half the size of my left quadriceps!!! WOah, dr lo didn't expect it to be that bad either. quite jialat for a 19 year old, when you should be running more and enjoying your youth. Gosh, feel like a senior citizen with some chronic knee problem! Gasp!! anywayz, he gave me another 3 weeks ex rmj. wonder if the MO will see it the same way... still, most importantly, will my leg ever return to normal??? wanna do more sports when i go to uni, before the rest of my youth is sapped away..

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~youth is fleeting~

SAT woes

i've been steadily scoring poorer and poorer in my mock SAT tests. in fact, in my last test, i only scored like 600 for maths. i had 10 consecutive qns wrong for identifying sentence errors, and my essay is getting nowhere. to make things worse, next week is my actual SAT, and i'm aiming for stanford. hmmm, wonder if i can still make it...

~shakes head and sighs~

anywayz, here's a quik quiz.. very obvious one. answer all the qns first b4 looking at the answers:

Qns:
1) How long did the Hundred Years War last?
2) Which country makes Panama hats?
3) From which animal do we get catgut?
4) In which month do Russians celebrate the October Revolution?
5) What is a camel's hair brush made of?
6) The Canary Islands in the Pacific are named after what animal?
7) What was King George VI's first name?
8) What color is a purple finch?
9) Where are Chinese gooseberries from?
10) What is the color of the black box in a commercial airplane?







eh.. dun cheat!!!





Ans:
1) 116 years, from 1337 to 1453
2) Ecuador
3) From sheep and horses
4) November. The Russian calendar was 13 days behind ours
5) Squirrel fir
6) The Latin name was Insularia Canaria - Island of the Dogs
7) Albert. When he became king in 1936, he respected the wish of Queen Victoria that no future king should ever be called Albert
8) Distinctively crimson
9) New Zealand
10) Orange

~oops not so straightforward yeah?~

screwed up overtime

yup that's wat happened lah... my branch had to stay back for some prep with our bosses to prepare for an upcoming audit. prior to this day, we've been doing lots of drawing and tracing. wah do so much until my eyeball gonna pop out liao.

so on this fateful night, we worked hard and toiled on until 10.30pm.. cuz of this, i failed to see ms goon off at the airport. could sense the sadness in her voice when i called her to tell her that i would not be able to make it. yeah understand the feeling. zheng books out on sat night, chork on overseas training, vanessa overseas, bernie with an upset stomach.. so think i was her 'last hope'.. gasp!!

haiz wat to do leh.. anyway, hope ms goon wil enjoy herself at cambridge. haha must send back some photos of your blonde classmates yeah? haha

just so blessed

wow wow wee yea... went to DON at tanglin mall for dinner with popo and yeye.. had taht korean bulgogi beef rice thingey... ummm... damn shiok and nice. filling too... the nice sunny side-up egg on the top adds to the stickiness of the rice, just the way i like it.

did a bit of window shopping after dinner. walked past 'that cd shop' and heard those kind of familiar tunes that you usually hear on 90.5 and on tv ads, but never knew the title. (oh yeah, for those who didn't know, i'm an oldie fan. lol) walked in and.. JACKPOT. the whole album had all those popular songs that have lasted through the ages and have been used countless times on tv... like 'music to watch girls by' (interestingly, that's the title of the album by high society) just heard a few of the songs and went "wow! must really get this album"

then the big heart-stabber came when i saw the price tag. bleh... 36 bucks!!! hmmm gotta consider.. but then, quite suddenly, popo just took one album of the rack, asked me if i liked it, and immediately ran to the cashier to pay for it. i was like "woah! that's fast!" and the album was mine... wow, how deep is their love for me

you know, i must be really blessed... did some reflection just now, thinking how good the Good Lord has been to me, even though i've been disobedient and simply a wretched person. He's given me such great parents who love and support me all the way; loving grandparents to shower even more love on me; good health, a house to live in; great pals in camp too... what more can i ask...

yeah wat more can i ask, except for the Good Lord to continue to draw me close to Him...

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ONE DAY

More than I could hope or dream of,

You want to pour your favour on me.

One day in the house of God is,

better than a thousand days in the world.

CHORUS:

So blessed I can't contain it.

So much I gotta give it away.

Your love has taught me to live now.

You are more than enough for me.

something's missing

yeah.. feeling the pinch once again for not persevering.

the other sgts were teaching their guys some stuff, something that i would have liked to do. but well, guess i'll never have the chance to do it, since i don't have my own men to look after.

still, i was able to walk around after lunch to kaypoh at their coy line. taught the guys some wrong stuff which i later corrected. (prob its a good thing i didn't teach them anything) haha so much for being a TO... lol

Happy Birthday Pappy!!!

Gee, Dad is really getting old. yi4 zhuan2 yan3 (in a flash of an eye), he's 49, and having lots of white hair. haha must be the stress at work that he goes through each day. he's been complaining a bit about work and wants to get out of it. oh well, he calls it a mid-life change (something to that extent lah) .. as a good son, i just accept it as his wish, since its his life. yup...

so today, to celebrate, we went out with popo and yeye to colbar, near temasek club. apparantly, this place was an officer's mess in some camp last time. then with the construction of the semi-expressway near aye, they shifted there lor. haha the chinese food there was really good, better than chin chin to be precise. price was a bit steep, but well, now with gst going up, inflation is settiling in.

on a side note, think we were the only table eating chinese food; everyone else was going western, so yup think that's what we'll do next week =)

on a separate note, at bs today, got to share a bit of my heart with jonas about my throwing in the towel early problem. oh wll, at least feel better that yup, can share it with someone lah...

you know, though i've confessed that i may have been disobedient, and i know that the good Lord has forgiven me, i still feel unworthy of Him. honestly, i feel that He's still somehow pissed at me. maybe it's just me thinking too much, but hey, when your friend pissed you off, won't you still remain grouchy about it for a few days, even though you may have forgiven him?

Nah, i don't think God's like that... Thank God for that

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11Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.
13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.
17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father. "But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.[b]'
22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

-Luke 15:11-24 (NIV)

35So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.

36You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.

37For in just a very little while, "He who is coming will come and will not delay.

38But my righteous one[f] will live by faith.

And if he shrinks back,

I will not be pleased with him."[g]

39But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed,

but of those who believe and are saved.

Split away suddenly

FINALLY, got a chance to see the physiotherapist. wah she quite pretty and young one leh... haha... quite nice also.. think she was able to diagnos my problem more accurately then the other specialists i've seen so far.

yeah, now just me and my buddy, together with the others in my branch. Gee i miss the time we new commanders could just be together in the bunk, talking cock with each other, comparing how screwed up our lives are, or just supporting each other, either through prayer or just waking each other up on time...

so yup, both of us will be the boss of our bunk now... gotta go clean up the bunk too. so freakin dusty...

well, gonna miss the good ol' times... but err come to think of it, its only just 3 weeks together
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haha i like this m1 ad... heard it was the indian restaurant owner who thought out the whole idea.. real smartz..



LOL

choices and stubborness

hey yo... its great being able to just blog here without anyone disturbing you. haha

so yup, i'm out of sispec and now at my home unit, the place where i'll be for the next 1 year and two more months. its an infantry unit by the way, and well, that means more chionging all the way.

anyway, went to see a specialist about my knee. interestingly he didn't ask me to go for an x-ray to see if my condition got worse. But oh well, after a few leg 'tests', he recommended 6 weeks rmj to go rest the poor knee before flying off to brunei.

Pretty thankful for that, cuz well, at least i get the rest from all the rushing that i thought i would have to face in the unit (just like bmtc and sispec). Interestingly enough, unit life really isn't so bad after all. On the contrary, there's quite a fair bit of free time, so haha not that bad after all.

More interestingly, into the first week of unit life, my RSM told me that cuz of my condition, I might get posted to be an int spec. Haha guess the amount of joy I felt after that. whee at last a chance to try something different and new.

however, my posting still wasn't confirmed yet, until further into the month when everyone else was slotted in nicely. so I did have the worry that, hey, i may not get what i want.

so what did i do about it? just persisted in prayer for that whole week, pleading with God that He would grant me my dream post. and in fact, that was the first thing on my list each night.

you may say i may be a very pious, religious person, but hey, that's where i think i crashed and burned badly. cuz in my prayers, i was just stubbornly praying that i would get what i want, instead of praying, "Oh Lord, let Your will be done' Worse still, i kept pleading for my request to be fulfilled, knowing full well that what i was doing was wrong. i mean, i did ponder to myself that by just letting God decide where i go to, i may get a better deal in the long run. but, i guess i just chose to throw in the towel along the way, and quit the path of faithfulness towards my God.

I feel ashamed... ashamed at cutting down my own cross

Well, i've gotten what i want now, but i'm beginning to feel the pains (and regrets) of stubbornly choosing my own path. I'm now separated from my pals who came here together with me from hotel platoon 3. and well, i really treasure these guys (bk, meng hwee, weijun, jar-min), but gotta let go of them now as they trudge out their own paths in their own company. also, i have no section to lead. wonder if it is a good thing or not, but well, guess i missed the essence of being in an unit.

thankfully, God still never forgot my fear of loneliness; Joel also got posted along with me. well, at least someone else I can talk to, but well, 2 guys tend to get familiar with each other too quickly, and then we realise that there's nothing else left to talk about. that's when the coldness sets in again. sigh... hope it stays wrong between us...

do hope my pals are having a great time together with their company and each other.

~Oh God, don't abandon me~


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8 "Hear, O my people, and I will warn you— if you would but listen to me, O Israel
9 You shall have no foreign god among you;

you shall not bow down to an alien god.
10 I am the LORD your God,

who brought you up out of Egypt.

Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.
11 "But my people would not listen to me;

Israel would not submit to me.
12 So I gave them over to their stubborn hearts to follow their own devices.
13 "If my people would but listen to me,

if Israel would follow my ways,
14 how quickly would I subdue their enemies

and turn my hand against their foes!
15 Those who hate the LORD would cringe before him,

and their punishment would last forever.
16 But you would be fed with the finest of wheat;

with honey from the rock I would satisfy you."

-Psalm 81: 8-16

Back again

ok now blogging for the sake of blogging.l haha so i'm now using one of the comps at rocky hill mess. our dear OC is gonna sing shang4 hai3 tan1... like wth.. lol...

ok so gonna have some fun now, won't take too much of guang hao's time.. thx lots !!!

cheers

p.s pay you??? you WISH AH!!!

SURPRISE

gee... once again, using the airport terminal to blog now. Heading off for taiwan now. For what purpose? shhh.... can't say anything about it..

oh well, feeling rather quesy about all this. I mean, am i ready for it?oh well, we'll see....

can't wait to get my own laptop, then i can continue blogging normally...

ok going on msn to see if anyone is online... to those who seee this new post, well, that shows that i'm still keen on blogging, just that my mum's laptop sux,and well no time lah..

God bless