YAY!!! Can FINALLY post!!!

phew.. finally logged into blogger in beta, at the free web access terminal at the budget terminal.. lol...

think my mum's laptop super screwed up. Of all things, cannot post. So yeah that's why its been super stagnant all this while... anyone has idea on how to fix my cookies?

anyway, i think i may wanna have a switch soon... may want to change to some other blog provider like livejournal or something. Any recommendations from any of you?

ok ok gtg and run about to explore the budget terminal. will try and talk more when i come back...

Kor Prajao way porn!!!

ok better than i thot

yeah.. maths 's' today lor... haha thot i would be sleeping through most of the paper, cuz i was super sleepy this morning, with my arms aching like crazy (dunno why, but i dreamt that i was helping some hospital test their new blood pressure machine. the pads go on both arms, and they squeeze real hard...)

surprisingly, though i couldn't complete an entire whole qns (unlike those maths philes), I could do at least 2/3 of the whole thing... yup fully awake too during the paper. quite a miracle somehow, cuz I only slept at 11.30 last nite... hmph

so yup, thank you God!!!

oh by the way, does anyone have the lyrics for 'endless love', the song by jackie chan in the myth; also, anyone got lyrics for qian li zhi wai also? haha pass to me in hard copy if you can yeah? my comp can't read chinese =(

kk few more days left.. let's go sleep...

zzzzzz

f for f maths

yeah... f for f maths... screwed mechanics... and the stats qns were weird man... i got a 2 sample Z test...

grrr.... cambridge is getting weirder...

Phew... one more week leh

aiya... past few weeks have been like bitter-sweet... maybe i just whine about a few stuff that i can remember lah:

phys got 6 mistakes for mcq liao. then phys paper 2 was like a mad killer lah. Their beginning to ask really weird and random questions. Eg: "Define the radian!!! Like huh? Isn't this a freaking maths question???? And even if it is, maths will never ask this kind of rubbish...

screwed chem paper 3. spent too much time on the first question on electrolysis. cathode reaction is wrong. its not H+ lah... then no time for the inorg section, which I usually do last.

ok on the good side, f maths was do-able. Think I can get my first A, in like the whole row of EEEEs and an O. Ok B is fine lah... But real scared that they will slaughter us in paper 2.

Oh and the biggest joke of them all: the topic that got the entire engin fac so worked up
(esp Medusa Beethoven) DID NOT COME OUT!!! Wah stupid lah... Waste so many weeks on lectures, extra lectures, tutorials.. extra lessons with jonas (which really helped a lot ;op ) and having to tolerate Beethoven's non-stop ranting on how she has to 'shou shi can ju' (clean up the mess). haha lol

seems like everyone is still in the exam mood and mugging hard... think i should do the same too...

yup even good old raffles is into it too

All the BEST!!!

haha yup one of my biggest worries is over!!! spent the past 4 days just purely mugging for gp. wonder if it was a good idea, but well, gp rather important in getting the course you want in NUS. Heard from my pastor that those who dun do well for gp must bid for their course, while those who scored for gp were 'assigned' the courses they wanted. so yup, cannot overlook gp.

oh well, i did qns 3, if you are curious. AQ was weird. summary is tough...

oh well, anyway, gotta do the next thing on my schedule, which is to..... burn my gp notes. oh but before that, yeah just wanna wish you guys:



God's eagle so that you can SOAR!















and God's rook for security and peace of mind..







Yup mug on hard. God bless =)

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30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40: 30-31
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10 The name of the LORD is a strong tower;
the righteous run to it and are safe.

Proverbs 18:10

disillusioned

you know, the a-levels are coming close. ideally, i thought i should be more or less on full steam, ploughing through my notes and my books, revising every single detail and mechanism, practicing lots more past year papers, wasting less time.

of course, that's an ideal. and in real life, we always deviate from the ideal scenario. I dunno.. I really wanna push on, but i feel so sian, so tired. like doing the same thing all day long..

the other thing that puts me off is my speed at doing things. i dunno, somehow quite a few pple can like do 2 papers and mug 1 chem topic a day, for eg. then here's the not-so-smart me doing 1 chem topic the whole screwed up day.

oh and you know how pissful it is to keep practicing at something you know you are weak at, hoping you will improve. and lo and behold, you don't. and then the smarty pants all around you are like scoring so well, so much better than you.

haiz... guess i should aim slightly lower. after all, I'm not the very high standard kinda chap, so why bother to fight my way into such a high standard, high class kinda uni where all the smarty pants all go and then i feel the same thing i've been facing for the past 2 years again 3 years down the road. anyway, what's wrong studying here?

haiz... just dang tired. my eyes especially. mugging like this is gonna make me so short-sighted that i'm as good as blind. yeah, many so many people play so much longer than me and their degree is still 300 to 400, while i haven't played any game in ages and my degree is over 700. haiz unfairness of life.

then again... real life deviates from the ideal, so just live with it...

eye wrinkles

sian ah... blogger take so long to upload the images i want it to upload. it keeps saying its uploading, circles 1 round, then stops there. oh wait its up now.

haha guess that's what you get when you mug too much huh? just look stoned with huge eyebags.. gosh..

kk go mug...

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you believe?

:@ contagious :@

yeah that stupid mask that i got yesterday or 2 days ago when I went to tan tock seng. haha wore that with the raffles sweater. Haha i look my darth varder's doctor with the hood on. hehe










sianz got my enlistment letter on tues. bmtc skool 2... haha heard from my cousin that its the school that they like to show off to parents. it's the school with the nicer cookhouse, and (most importantly) its the school that's closest to the ferry terminal. hahaa so those in skool 1, sorry ah.. must walk further in... much further in... lol

hey tell me if you are in the same skool as me yeah? haha the more the merrier... lol

happy mugging !!!

everything crushing me down

aiyo trying to complete US uni apps. no time for fluids leh... then gotta see miss wang tml and i haven't prepared much yet. grrr....

oh and i feel sad for you nj pple. your gp compre was like worse than tough. and i thot my skool's one was the worst of the lot... haha...

hey hey dun waste time... go and study!!!

2nd last day of skool

can you believe it? 2nd last day of school formally. So quick.

Can you even believe that I went to school today with practically 4 hours of free time?! Yup that's true, cuz its only civics as the first period, then GP, which was another free period, and then chem, which was also converted into a free period, and then recess was next.

Oh well, class breakfast first. soooo very nice of Mr Lee to buy so much Tiong Bahru char siew bao, siew mai and other stuff. We also had jiashun's chao fan and potato wedges. Then there was the cake for all the birthday babies from August to October. Gosh you should have seen the cake from Secret Recipe. Wah so sinful!!! The chocolate melts in your mouth literally and the whole cake is just chocolate and cream. Whee... Calories=> Fat!!! =(

Of course, then got the usual concoction by chork for zhong ji mi ma. This time round even better... Got hell lot of stuff, like bits of potato wedge, scrambled eggs, chilli, creamer all thrown into lemon tea. then mr lee halfway through added in chicken skin?! Like yucks man... haha the time i played, never zhong again, so ;op

The concoction, with the chilli, cake, scrambled egg and chicken skin floating

Chork VS Mr Lee.. Who will zhong4?

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haha suay lor mr lee... haha but kudos to mr lee and the others for allowing us to have so much fun today...

Oh and yeah nxt time you play game of life, be a tech support. Then you can earn a hell lot when people dunno how to spin the wheel properly. haha that's how i got rich and won everyone, while poor zhiyan was like... well poor.. hehe

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Nothing much to say bout NYAA today as well... couldn't shake hands with the president as he was feeling ill, so someone else took over. haiz so wasted, but hope he gets well soon. haha recognised the MC's voice... mum told me later that it was Mr X from 90.5 or sth...

after the ceremony, we just took some party shots here and there in our blazers. yay finally what we have been working hard for has finally paid off..

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kk back to the world of dreams

2nd heartbreaker

yup... officially scraped through gp... my gp grade has been like a sine curve-- up and down, up and down, and this time, its way down...

oh and can't believe I actually wasted my chance of going home early today, when I had the chance. CAn't believe I actually wasted 2.5 hours playing hearts when I got such LOUSY grades!!! wah rao feel like slapping myself..

Haha sorry guys if I seem to be whining. Thanks for teaching me the game and for letting me shoot all of you unknowingly that time. Still wondering how I was able to do it... -scretches head-

Anywayz, gmail is screwed. Can't log in, so send emails to my other emails for now yeah? And yeah, my blog design badly screwed cuz I can't find a good file hosting service. Anyone knows of a good and FREE one? thx

Oh and err... dun think I'll be coming online often for now, prob till after the As, so yup may not update so much... May upload jokes once in a while to help you guys destress yeah? HAha

kk all the best to the guys at ac having their final years. Meanwhile, study hard and play harder after that =)

I found the original version of 'We didn't start the fire'. well haha enjoy it. lyrics provided too...

bye for now. God bless ;op



WE DIDN'T START THE FIRE
by Billy Joel

Harry Truman, Doris Day, Red China, Johnnie Ray
South Pacific, Walter Winchell, Joe DiMaggio

Joe McCarthy, Richard Nixon, Studebaker, television
North Korea, South Korea, Marilyn Monroe

Rosenbergs, H-bomb, Sugar Ray, Panmunjom
Brando, "The King and I" and "The Catcher in the Rye"

Eisenhower, vaccine, England's got a new queen
Marciano, Liberace, Santayana goodbye

CHORUS
We didn't start the fire
It was always burning
Since the world's been turning
We didn't start the fire
No we didn't light it
But we tried to fight it


Joseph Stalin, Malenkov, Nasser aand Prokofiev
Rockefeller, Campanella, Communist Bloc

Roy hn, Juan Peron, Toscanini, dacron
Dien Bien Phu falls, "Rock Around the Clock"

Einstein, James Dean, Brooklyn's got a winning team
Davy Crockett, Peter Pan, Elvis Presley, Disneyland

Bardot, Budapest, Alabama, Krushchev
Princess Grace, "Peyton Place", trouble in the Suez

CHORUS

Little Rock, Pasternak, Mickey Mantle, Kerouac
Sputnik, Chou En-Lai, "Bridge on the River Kwai"

Lebanon, Charlse de Gaulle, California baseball
Starkweather, homicide, children of thalidomide

Buddy Holly, "Ben Hur", space monkey, Mafia
Hula hoops, Castro, Edsel is a no-go

U-2, Syngman Rhee, payola and Kennedy
Chubby Checker, "Psycho", Belgians in the Congo


CHORUS


Hemingway, Eichmann, "Stranger in a Strange Land"
Dylan, Berlin, Bay of Pigs invasion

"Lawrence of Arabia", British Beatlemania
Ole Miss, John Glenn, Liston beats Patterson

Pope Paul, Malcolm X, British politician sex
JFK, blown away, what else do I have to say

CHORUS

Birth control, Ho Chi Minh, Richard Nixon back again
Moonshot, Woodsto/ck/, Watergate, punk rock
Begin, Reagan, Palestine, terror on the airline
Ayatollah's in Iran, Russians in Afghanistan

"Wheel of Fortune", Sally Ride, heavy metal, suicide
Foreign debts, homeless vets, AIDS, crack, Bernie Goetz
Hypodermics on the shores, China's under martial law
Rock and roller cola wars, I can't take it anymore

CHORUS

We didn't start the fire
But when we are gone
Will it still burn on, and on, and on, and on...

EEEE-O

yup... finally broke my trend of Es for f maths. And guess what I got? Yup, you're right I'm that suay. a BIG FAT O.

nuff said... anyway, A for 9233, B for chem. kk that's it...

oh for those who can't seem to see the We Live In Singapura video, click here for the same version, but different file.. should download faster i think

meanwhile, go laugh at this. took it from jkum's blog:

~eeee(y)o~

Class Outing.. And yeah: Just... worried

thot i would be late for class outing. End up, when I got to Dhoby Ghaut, only Esther was there. So ok, nvm just wait for the others, while listening to those cool African music. Hey seriously quite good you know, their form of rather rhythimic music.

Anyway, about 10 of us met up and we decided to go Pizza Hut for lunch. And as usual, while waiting for the food to come, dear chork had to come up with some concoction of his as a forfeit for 'zhong ji mi ma' Oh well, trust him to come up with something that makes you squeal when you smell it, let alone taste it. Luckily for me, I never got it. Haha poor est, like kena 3 times. Good on ya mate =)


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Contents: water, coke, red chilli powder (lots of it), pepper (hell lot more), chork's evil intent on sabo-ing us

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so ok, after lunch, so many pple had to zhao off lah. Oh what the heck, so sad, cuz got so few pple watching movie with us.

anywayz, 'the devil wears prada' is quite good. haha admire Miranda.. tough lady, though she can give you the I-want-to-strangle-her feeling. On the whole really good show. Reminds you of the most important things in life yeah?

Oh well, back home, sudden feeling of worrying again. US apps and all the shit I have to do for that, UK apps (and all the shit as well), then gotta study for A-Levels, which is not far off. and there's still linear spazes that I'm pretty confused. err... HELP!!!

Problem is, I damn scared that I spend so much time on these few things that I totally screw my A-Levels lor. then can't go anywhere, prob except MIT (of the east)

sigh.. just worried...

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~Oh by the way, I spoke to Bernoulli yesterday, and he advised me, "Son, you shd do your papers fast otherwise the pressure on you will be greater."~

an overview

Oh well... here's a quick overview of the past 2 days

1) Sunday 24th Sept 06

Nothing much today. Just felt like taking a walk at Raffles City. So yup went there with Pappy to walk around at the new area at Basement 1. Quite nice leh... I had that sudden desire to listen to African music, so i spotted these 2 albums at That CD Shop. Had a preview of them. Quite nice lah actually. So yup Dad said he would get them for me at That CD Shop near his office tomorrow, cuz he can get some discount over there.

huh? why get AFrican music? Dunno leh.. Just that sudden desire to listen to something 'cultural', i mean, today's music got so much of the standard rock and roll, piano, electric guit etc. So yup thought i gain some form of culture in this rather culture-less country.

2) Monday 25th Sept 06

HAha went back to AC to meet up with Jonas and have a crash course on Linear Spazes. Wah he quite good man... the 10 axioms actually quite ok one lah... then linear independence and spanning also quite easy one ah, come to think of it. no wonder some pple in my class sort of fell in love with linear spazes. yucks

hehe after that took a joy ride on the BP LRT. Yay haven't done that in years already. Took some party shots along the way, and i was quite lucky, cuz on my 2nd round, i set on a 2-car train. Actually not much diff lah, still moves the same way. Hmmm didn't know they used Platform 2 at CCK station also. Prob cuz it was peak hour, so yup no choice just pile everything in. Haha lucky me to be able to see the train enter that part of the station.

Gosh, at the end of my last round, my legs were so numb from sitting cross legged at the front of the train. When I tried to get up and walk, i couldn't feel my left leg at all. Nearly lost my balance, cuz i felt my left looked like rubber, collapsing under my weight at any time. Gross!!! So i had no choice but to hope out of the train. Think the other passengers thought i was crazy or some retard trying to be independent. lol

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hmmm.. been thinking about stuff lately. Feeling prayer-less these past few days. Dunno why. Things are being taken away from me. And i gotta do other stuff assignments as well. Thing is, i just wanna focus on my work now, cuz hey that is important. And yeah, i need a break, not more work to keep me occupied...

Left or Straight?

Well there's a hell lot more choices in life

So stick around with your pals, cuz 2 is better than one =)

Post-prelim thoughts

Well.. yeah prelims are over, and guess no one feels like talking about them. Haha but i have some thought lah.

This is one exam in which I kept making the same mistake again and again. Yeah leaving all the studying to the last minute. Of course, the excuse is that the school took so damn long to teach everything, so i had to still do catch up rather than any revision at all.

Haha but somehow, through the exam, could sense God helping me those spastically tough qns, prob esp during phys paper 1 and 2. can't remember exactly how lah, but yeah through the exam, can really feel our good Lord helping me through. So yup thank you Lord for helping me out here.

Hope it was the same for you. Hope it'll happen again during the A-levels itself.

Meanwhile, i wanna have fun...

It's over

YAY!!! Phys 'S' over liao. In other words, this crappy prelims are over!!!. Yay I'm literally over the fence!!! Yeah not the moon yet, cuz still got to go through this nightmare again when A-Levels come. Grrr....

Actually, got some stuff about the exams i wanna talk about, but i'll do it tml lah.

oh and yup fixed the problem on my blog liao... didn't upload the css file, so that's what caused the screw up. enjoy yeah?

meanwhile, for you stressful people out there going through promos or final years and need to destress, see these links below. Quite farnie i thot:

1) Beerfest movie trailer

2) Some Singapore Song- sang by Hossan Leong

watch it before they are gone. yupz have fun and all ze best!!! =)

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"i live in Singapura"

sianz.. s papers left

alrite, s papers left. nothing much to say lah. screwed f maths again. dunno why, but yesterday, after doing some past year papers from sr and meridian, i somehow lost confidence in mechanics, the topic that i've been rather confident at all this time. And by some inverse relationship, my confidence in stats increased, but very slightly though... hmmm some relationship.

oh well, just left s papers. err anyone has any advice or idea on how to mug this?

oh well here's a random photo:

taken on the very old 317. volvo B10M, body make is by Alexander i think. yup the one that rattles, whose seats are still the sticky dark blue upholstery, and just windows, no aircon. oh and the bus stopping strip still works, you know that black strip on the ceiling of the bus? yupz built to last, these old babes...

and below is a really nice story.. hope you enjoy it:

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8
year-olds, "What does love mean?"
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have
imagined. See what you think:


"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her
toenails anymore.

So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got
arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca- age 8


"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4


"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and
they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5


"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries
without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6


"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4


"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before
giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who
you hate," Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7


"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends
even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6


"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at
all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8


"My mommy loves me more than anybody .
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6


"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5


"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is
handsomer than Brad Pitt ." Chris - age 7


"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all
day." Mary Ann - age 4


"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes
and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4


"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars
come out of you." (what an image) Karen - age 7


"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean
it, you should say it a lot. People forget." Jessica - age 8


And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a
contest he was asked to judge.

The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an
elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard,
climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.

When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy
said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry"

When there is nothing left but God, that is when you find out that God is
all you need.

life still goes on

yup... nothing much going on... life still goes on

a real Uncle

few mins left till i turn 18.... not really excited or happy whatsoever, cuz:

1) It's now right in the middle of my PRELIMS!!!
2) I'm officially an adult( ie do sth wrong, go straight to jail)

so as an adult, you are expected to behave more maturely, be more weary of your actions. when you do silly things, people will hound you down because of that.

aiya... there are still so much things that I wanna do as a youth, but guess its not so possilbe now. what with the responsibilities of studying, then working to support yourself etc.. in this little pressure cooker, how to do so much things at one time?

oh well... i'm aging... and my youth is flying away... help! Preserve me, my strength, life is zapped from the worries of the world!!! and those spastic papers!! Grr

6-2+4-4=?

oh well bq today... decided to take a short breather to go down and take a look at the results and support support lah.. didn't know this breather was gonna be shorter than I thought.

so ok, on the whole, the top team was 4th in Singapore, so YAY!!! -charades, confetti exploding- Yup good job guys... hope you guys did really have a jolly jolly good time, like I did when i was in sec 2 and sec 3. yup guess these are the kind of stuff that really makes our time in the 12th so much more memorable and enjoyable yeah? guess its also these kind of events that really bond the different cohorts together, yeah? so yup hope you guys continue to stay close to one another ok?

well, the road home came so much faster than expected. thot i could just stay back talk cock with the guys, but well, it wasn't gonna be the case. sigh, so close yet so far.

you know, it really got me thinking on the way back. am I really supposed to stay on, or just say bye, since i've done my job already? yeah... gotta really pray and seek about this...

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Mr Kan: Mr Ng, this is our result. Calculate: 6-2+4-4=
Mr NG: Zero ah?
Rest of us: ...
MR Sim: (impersonating Mr Ng) Eh, I don't teach Maths. I teach geo-phy.

LIVE YOUR DREAMS

yeah guess all of you all have heard the tragic news: World famous crocodile hunter Steve Irwin passed away this afternoon after being stung in the heart by a stringray while filming for a documentary in the Great Barrier Reef.

Pretty ironic huh? That the crocodile hunter passed away because of a stringray??? And furthermore, he got stung in his heart... wah like so zhun.. so accurate...

you know, this got me wondering again about the great fragileness of life. You can be enjoying what you do this moment and then you're dead in the next minute. phew pretty scary huh? and yet, I guess the hunter still lived his life without regrets, for he has been doing what he has always wanted to do for the rest of his life, ain't it? just that, well, didn't think he would have wanted to leave this world so suddenly, so quickly.. but it has never been up to us to decide when we die...

So yeah, guess the lesson for us is to just treasure the life that we have today. to be thankful that we still wake up the next morning, ready to face a new day; to be thankful that we can still breathe, see, smell, hear, talk etc... yeah all the small things of life that make it all the more worth living...

and yeah guess one thing we can thank dear Steve Irwin is his courage to live his dreams. That's right,

LIVE YOUR DREAMS

else life also pretty sian ah?

CROCS RULE!!!

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"He died doing what he enjoyed doing best"

CROCS RULE!!

now give me a kiss

lol

Bit of relief

okiez gp's over.. lol thought it was quite ok lah. was banking quite a bit on poverty after reading through the zai notes that mdm ho gave to us. sigh, too bad nothing on poverty came out for essay. Ended up doing the last question on youths.. Something like youths are self-centred and cannot be relied upon to build the country's future or something like that. So just crap all the way lah. hehe at least I could think of things to crap.

Compre quite ok also lah.. haha at least my knowledge on poverty came in for one of the 3 mark questions. Just vomit everything I knew about it. Once again, no time to finish AQ. Oh can anyone tell me the meaning of predilection? A bit tough to do the summary when you don’t know what its really asking for yeah?

Anywayz… here’s perhaps a bit of an update about the past few weeks when I was inactive.

On pre-NDP day, went back to ac to ask for testimonials from dessy and mr seah.. wonder if they wrote it yet??? oh and i took some party shots too, all on my NEW PHONE ah:


haha see some new balcony to watch the entire astro turf. convenient huh?

see.. sprawling roof to play soccer… wah envious…

lovely view from the top of the IB block...

haha see the lizaed on the car tyre.. felt bored one day during recess..

ok gtg... trying to sleep at ten everynight so that i won't feel tired out early in the morning when the paper starts...

time check: 10.30pm.. -gasps-

too frekin tired

been sleeping at like past 2 the past two nights, getting my stupid portfolio ready. grrr... sigh actually wanted to talk about the ndp week, but guess that'll have to wait. real sorrie mates, just simply worn out..

yeah guess you should have realised that my background sort of disappeared... ya think the server that supports my photos crashed, so gotta look for a new one... looks real ugly this thing

Busy lor

haiz so sadz... HAve so much rubbish to do lor. The stupid 3 best achievements, now done thankfully, personal statements... and the worse of them all... Linear spazes and chi-squared tests tutorial. Then tml got phys as well, so got to do phys tutorial

Its week 8 liao, and well gp is coming soon. But thx to dan brown, i haven't touched a single issue of newsweek. So i guess my general knowledge pretty screwed, and mdm ho say it will be a real toughy. die liao... i just failed my previous essay, cuz i guesss i didn't prepare much..

Real worried. There's just so much things to do, and so little time. Haha so much for my worry that my life would be real boring when term 3 started. =(

ok maybe i'll talk about the ndp week some other time. gotta do math s now. yupz chork said it was quite easy, so i'll attempt to finish as much as possible.

~so busy~

FOP rox!!!

ok so got there at 5.30pm to start queueing. queue to 6.30pm, felicia not here yet... Think the doors were opened and people were going in already. So poor me had to wait at the same end of the overhead bridge until she came. Oh well by the time she was there, almost the end of the line had gone past me, so I guess I practically wasted my time going there early to queue. =( To confirm that, she told me that one of her friends had already reserved places for us inside, cuz her friend had been queueing since 4.30pm... wah power...

So this band called Christian City Church Band started the session with their reeally really LOUD music. To top it up, we were sitting real close to the stage and the music was blaring over the speakers above us... phew quite jialat... my poor ears nearly went deaf. Then the pple in front of us were jumping through the choruses, so the entire ground was shaking... Oh well just get used to it...

Then the cool bit: Don Moen came to lead too. He sang some of his songs from his previous album "Thank You, Lord" Yup guess that was when my heart was more at rest and I could really sort of worship... I mean his songs are really meant to be personal, between you and God alone, that kind of thing. Guess another reason was because its less rocky and more oldie kind of style.. yeah my kinda style..

Haha then the next part was by this pastor from Argentina, Rev Ed Silvoso. Nice accent... Oh well, his mesage sort of applied to me.. Taken from Judges 6, about Gideon. Ya its not about what happened in the past, not what others think of you, but what God thinks about you. Hey he called Gideon a mighty warrior (v12) right, although Gideon seemed like a coward then. Well if you read on, Gideon did indeed save his nation from the Midianites. So yup, lesson is: don't look at your situation now or the past, but always believe in what God sees in you now!!!

hmmm Don Moen's new album sounds real nice.. wanna get it!!!

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THANK YOU LORD
sang by: Don Moen

I come before you today
And there's just one thing that I want to say
Thank you Lord,Thank you Lord
For all you've given to me
For all the blessings I can not see
Thank you Lord,Thank you Lord

With a greatful heart, with a song of praise
with an outstreched arm, I will bless your name

Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord

For all you've done in my lifeY
ou took my darkness and gave me your light
Thank you Lord,Thank you Lord
You took my sin and my shame,
You took my sickness and healed all my pain
Thank you Lord,Thank you Lord

With a greatful heart, with a song of praise
with an outstreched arm, I will bless your name

Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord

KEY CHANGE
Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord,I just want to thank you Lord
Thank you Lord

my poor eye

ok just finished what ck wants us to do... now there's just chem, phys and maths left....

you know, for a moment i thot i was about to lose my sight. I dosed off in the library today. Then when I woke up, I realised that my right eye had a bit of trouble focusing correctly. Vision got a bit blur then. Dun remember pressing down on it while dosing off on the table... Thankfully, everything went back to normal after sometime... hm any bio twirts can explain this phenomenon? enlighten me abit :)

seeing is perhaps the greatest gift in the world

E for enough, F for finish

Lol seems like dad took a great toll on the car today... He practically drove the whole day on a low tank until we ran out of fuel just outside our house. Yup while we were just about to turn in, the engine just died... Starting the ignition again didn't help... then dad realised that we were out fo fuel, and just outside our house somemore.. wah so lucky man... haha could have been worse if we ran out of fuel elsewhere...

thankfully, ah q was at home, so we asked him to buy petrol for us from the petrol kiosk and bring it over, then we manually loaded the fuel in. Bit afraid that there would be sparks that would blow up the car, but thank God, everything went well.. hope dad had enough fuel to bring the car to the petrol station to top it up, else pushing that big mammoth alone, well, might be tough...

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Liang Popo went to work at the petrol station. When she looked at the fuel indicator pointing to E, she asked the driver: "You seow ah? Why pump for what?" The driver looked surprised and said, " Ya what... my tank is empty." Liang popo shot back: " you stupid lah... E for enough, F for finish lah"

Discouraged

Oh well... sat there during maths lecture trying to understand what beethoven was trying to teach about linear spazes.... but i literally wasted that hour... Gosh that was the most torturing hour ever...

Sigh so much things to worry about.. Uni apps, 3 best achievements, testimonials, mugging for prelims, catching up with tutorials, a-levels.. sigh so much to do...

buay tahan ah!!!

wanna cry ;(

cONCUSSED

~tired~

HAPPY BIRTHDAE ZHENG!!!

But Before that, had to attend college day.. Suay ah, got arrowed by CK to attend cuz I came late for his tutorial. Grr!!!

I was seated at the extreme corner of the centre block, near the third floor entrance to LT1. haha nice quiet spot to do lots of things, like read deception point, sms, call pple, all behind the back of this teacher sitting in front of me. Lol

After the whole thing, we met miss wang and congratulated her on her 25 years of service to the college. Haha but I wonder if she is really happy about that? –ponders-
Zheng and I met gra-ce at j8. Had lunch there, then train down to suntec for the scholars choice preview. Quite disappointing, cuz very few organizations were present. No chance to shop around for scholarships.

The seminar quite ok lah… learnt a few tips on taking a great photo of you having the greatest time of your life:

1) Tilt your head to one side
2) Let it drop backwards
3) SMILE!!!

The next part of the seminar was quite meaningful, although the speaker was rather comical. Still, it served to remind us to choose our scholarships with a purpose. To know our higher calling and bear the responsibilities of being a scholar, ie to help the less fortunate while we are successful, else how can they break out of their vicious cycle and move on to achieve greater things?

Went arcade next!! After resting for bout 2 or 3 years, I decided to give crazy taxi another go!! Wah the joy of being crazy again felt damn shiok. Think I stayed on the machine for about half an hour to 40min, which was about half the time I used to spend on it when I was really pro… Not bad, earned about $19k, which gives me an Awesome license!!! Phew, played until I sweat all the way down to my pants. Saw this great pool just below the seam of my shirt. Had to cover that part for the remainder of the night ;)

Dinner at Swiss Culture was nice. Thot the girls were stupid by ordering chicken wings. I mean, hello!!! Chicken wings from a Swiss restaurant.. Might as well go hawker centre eat right??? Anywayz, me and john shared a mixed grill… Food quite nice.. Then had a nice chocolate fondue… totally destroyed gra-ce’s throat. And the bill totally destroyed my budget!

Ah but what the heck. After eating, we went back to challenge each other in Daytona… Wah the rest of them are noobs… I maintained second all the way. Think xinyan was taico while we played the beginner’s round. Just as time was up, he just zoomed past me at the last bend to become first… grr…

Ok then show off my pro skill at the bishi bashi machine.. not bad ah, my skill still quite good after all these years!!!

Oh well, its been a great day.. Hope you had a great day too Zheng!!! God bless ;D

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Q: Why is the cow better than the pig?
A: Because it gives while it is still alive...

BeeZee Me

Ok very busy, so shall just give a brief overview of the week:

Monday, 24th July
Stayed back in school today to attend the UCAS talk. Haha thought the whole thing was really interesting, cuz the teachers were like real funny all the way, even when scolding. lol... haha when people were still streaming in at 5.15pm, mr purvis was like going in his scotish accent: "I can't wait here all day. There are drinks to be drunk and women to be loved!" Then mr sowden was cracking up lots of funny jokes along the way during the briefing. According to him, if you have heard of a particular UK university before, its bound to be good. Eg if you have heard of Oxford, then it must be good. If you haven't heard of University of Haddlesfield, then it probably is not so good. haha... then while going through Stamford Raffles' UCAS online application, good old Stamfold Raffles' security qns for UCAS: "What JC was named after me?" think you know the answer for that. Oh and good old Stamford Raffles only had 2 O-Levels (wonder how he got into RJ in the first place) and 2 A-Levels (like where can he go after this?) Impressive huh?

Tuesday, 25th July
Beethoven went crazy today. when she entered class, she started ranting about how the single maths people were going to kope LT1 for their extra lecture during the same time slot that she wants to use. then she also lamented about how she was thrown with linear spazes and has to 'clean up the mess'. "Haiz", she said to herself, "I started teaching Further maths 30 years ago well, and now I have to end it badly." Sigh feel sorry for her... guess she's really under stress to complete everything...

Grace, Chork and I went shopping round for Zheng's Bdae Gift. Haiz then along the way, silly chork had to be engrossed with all the eeyores at action city. I know that behind every smart, succesful guy is a little plush soft toy that puts him to sleep each night, but well... chork was like practically head over heels with the eeyores. dunno why, but i thot the eeyores looked quite ugly and inaccurate. hey eeyore has never smiled in any Pooh cartoon. Haha guess what he said on his blog was quite true.. When he's with soft toys, you can't distinguish him between a guy or a girl. haiz typical chork.. so kiddy...

Ok so in the end we got Zheng this book on sudoku. After that, went with gra-ce to go look for wristbands. Along the way, we bought Zheng his bdae card, which I thought was much better than what the kiddy guy wanted to get him. Won't say what it is, else your impression of him might just totally come crashing down ;)

Wednesday, 26th July
Last PE of the year, of my entire life!!! Sigh ended on a rather bad note though. Kind of a shouting match occured between guy and girls when we were forming teams. Then I guess morale just hit rock bottom... Haiz my team got thrashed 4-0 in the first game. Haiz we're noobs lah. Wanted to play the second match, or rather my last match for PE, but then i had to be a referee somewhere else, so yup, could only hope the class played on their best...

Oh well, other than that, there was the nyaa interview. i got lost while trying to find the place, cuz central mall consisted of a few blocks and many entrances. Guess I turned too quickly and entered the main square instead of seeing the chinese temple first. Wah panicked lah! Scared I would be late. Haha then asked for directions from this disney office. the lady behind the counter quite helpful lah. After walking one round around the entire block, I finally found that obscure little staircase that would bring me to the nyaa office. didn't have to wait very long before it was my turn. The interview was quite ok lah... phew at least I handled it well..

Watched Maggie and Me when I got home.. haha we recorded it on our new DVD recorder. wooh!! haha incidentally, the first episode was aired yesterday, and yesterday was the first day of the seventh month. so guess good old maggie had a reason for coming out today huh?

Thursday, 27th July
AMC was terrible. Easy questions dunno how to do. Haiz one phrase to describe myself: a maths student who cannot do maths!

Friday, 28th July
Stayed back to play asshole taiti.. Wah i was the king for the first few rounds while doing M10 tutorial. Then I got stuck at this question, then I started falling in the hierarchy and finally became an asshole!!! Wah rao suay ah...

linear spaces

tough topic this one... yupz hard time understanding it..

dunno if i should just give up this topic and salvage the others. haha but then beethoven say that if we give up linear spaces and give up complex numbers, we might as well give up further maths entirely. lol...

oh well, 3 hours of beethoven today. one more hour of beethoven tomorrow. spent like 45min doing one question on hypothesis testing. Wah rao... concept so chim one...

oh on a sidenote, stupid tagboard's screwed. Think the entire server went down, can't find it online anymore. So yup gotta find a replacement, so hang in there guys... any suggestions?

Just tired

Oh boy... Not much mood to do anymore work. I can literally feel myself suffocating under the great rush of stuff to do. The endless stack of prelim papers that now sit on my desk, the jaw-dropping number of tutorials that are trailing, the large amount of stress having to decide which uni to apply for, getting testimonials ready, personal portfolio, whatever, yada yada... wah seh can die ah...

Dunno lah... Like very tired. Just wanna take a break. Yet with every second spent on breaking( ie doing nothing) , the consequence of that wasted second will start snowballing, creating even greater pressure at the end. So on I go, dragging my tired self along the stressful road of the A-levels, struggling to complete those endless tutorials that keep coming and coming like a bullet train, knowing that each time I slow down, time still moves on ruthlessly, forcing you to trail behind even further. So you either catch up, or never be able to join the rest who are ahead of you...

Hmmm feeling dry these days... sigh... jong a tit taan
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1 O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.

-Psalm 63:1

Yo Ho!! Yo Ho!! A Screwed up life for me

came back home sick after watching pirates with kum. actually, think i was sick since monday. bad pain in the stomach, but thought it was because i wasn't eating the correct stuff, or not eating enough.

Went home feeling colder than usual. Mum confirmed it with a fever. Haiz. So got one day mc now... Hope I get well soon..

Then now the most screwed up thing is the fact that i may have to jeopardise either one of these 2 things in the coming months. 1) SATs.. 2) A-Levels... Well you see, the slack me chose to slack and not worry about anything about university applications for the past 7 months. Then suddenly, my parents said that going to UK was not a very good idea, cuz UK unis are not properly funded, better to go US. Perhaps that's why everything is still the same...

So that sent alarm bells ringing, and argh! more stress now.. Gotta study for prelims, a-levels, sats etc etc etc... Argh STRESS can't take it!!!

No wonder I'm ill.. sigh

oh for those of you who didn't catch the link abt the lame ac thing, here it is:



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Yo Ho Yo Ho!
A pirate's life for me

choices choices

the sudden dawning of the thought that my application for uni will be starting soon sort of frightened me. for a start, i dunno WHAT i wanna study, much less decide where to study... I have NO SATs, i have no idea what to do when the application process starts, i am thoroughly confused as whether to apply now or wait until i have my head botak for 2 years, or apply now and hope that they will reserve a place for me.

The other screwed up thing is also the best 3 achievements thing that MOE wants. Haiz dunno wat to write for that leh... damn scared...

Oh well.. woke up early to send geraldine off at the airport. hope you have a good time there studying ok? send some shots or something to my email. Yupz... email ah?

My Kinda Saturday

Yeah! Today is MY kind of Saturday!!!

Had a good rest last night. Took my time to wake up, breakfast etc. Then took my time to do QT. Then just slowly do my 2 math tutorials for monday. No stress, just do as much as I can..

I also found time to devour quite a bit of my library book---- Dan Brown's Deception Point. An absolute good read! Keeps you stuck to it for long periods of time, and today was my chance to enjoy it, uninterrupted.

Had dinner at East Coast Park, with popo and yeye. Yup good thing we went early at 6pm so that we could find a place to sit. Half an hour later, and we would be snatching places already! Oh and the place that we had got lots of sea breeze. Shiok!

So disappointing! My favourite prawn mee stall closed already! Couldn't find the old man and his wife there. Hmm guessed they decided to retire. Yeah think they deserve a break, cuz mum and dad have been seeing them ever since I was in mum's tummy. ;)

Tried the wanton mee. Not bad lah.. Laksa from the old Roxy Theatre quite nice and thick too. Still, the old joy of eating a good bowl of dry prawn mee, together with oh luak, would be lost forever.......

Took a walk to look at the cable ski thing at the lagoon. Quite cool yeah? Just ski round and round and round and round. Studied how the dispatch and retract systems worked. Quite a simple mechanism lah really...

Sad thing is, the only few people using it were mainly ang mohs, with a few locals here and there. Other than that, no one else!! Think this thing is a real white elephant. Where;s the white elephant placards?

While walking back to the carpark, we saw this lone F-16 fighter jet hovering above us slowly, then it fired its boosters suddenly. Mum told me that it could have been a spare jet f0r the NE show at the Nat'l Stadium( you know the ndp for p5 kids?) , just in case some plane screw up, then this jet can take over.

Likewise, we also saw this chinook carrying the Singapore Flag near the CBD skyline. So nice view. Mum also said that they also had 2 chinooks, each with a flag. both would fly together until they reached the National Stadium. Then one would move in, the other just hover outside... Simple back up yeah?

To end of this sat, played bomberman with martin. trashed him like anything man... Haha noob ;p

tired and demoralised

Dunno lah.. Rather tired and discouraged.. Got back GP compre yesterday... 25.5/50. I thought I could have scored better, cuz I was rather confident while doing the paper. Now reality slowly sinks in, and the truth hurts...

Worse still, stayed back today to play cards, instead of doing up my eigenvector tutorial.. Well ok, granted that it is the end of the week, so relax a bit lah... We played bridge again lor... Sigh my brain wasn't working at all again. I mean, I was blur all the time, not knowing who my partner was, throwing out the trump card at the wrong time, causing my partner to lose, like a stumbling block to others. You can actually see the others doing mental calculations in their heads (esp chork) while they bid and when they play. hmm reminds me of pappy when we play at home.. An incredible mathematical mind, always thinking on the spot and working his brains..

Sigh... Wonder why I don't seem to follow after him, or them? Why is my brain just a sponge? able to absorb stuff and knowledge, that's it. Can't manipulate or THINK. Gosh, so demoralising. The basic function of the brain is to think, and yet I can do nothing except to shun away from it. Anywayz, kept losing all the way. Reminds me of Dick Su in Ready, Steady, Pom Pi Pi... JINXED!!! Even luck also not on my side... Haiz...

I also learnt that I'm a rather truthful person. Tried playing Bluff, but always get caught bluffing. Haiz you can see that Zheng and Chork are seasoned liars.. and can strategise somemore. As for a complete noob like me, with no experience, how to bluff? much less win... :/ Haiz guess its too bad for me that my childhood was just books, study and bo chap-ness. So here I am, suffering the consequences of being the most boring person, unable to use his brain for any purpose etc..

sigh.. tired and demoralised...

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Oh well on a separate note, Peiyi's last minute plan to celebrate Geraldine's farewell pulled off :) Both of us discussed and confirmed it last night. Then there was the quick mad hop-a-bout to inform the GOH and other pple to join us..

So yup they came to church, including Sam and Steph =))) As it was Games night as well, we played badminton, table tennis etc. Great fun. Pastor Yap wsa also there, trying to promote this weekly friday night fellowship kinda thing through sports or something to invite your friends to church and play. Hey his badminton and table tennis quite pro one leh... Wah dun look down on him.... o_O

Taught Megan how to play table tennis too.. Wow she enjoyed it lots. Too bad she's a bit short for the table, else it would have been much easier for her. Played a game with Chris too. A good thing our skills were on par with each other, so we really enjoyed our game.

So when it was time, we asked Pastor Yap to say a prayer for Geraldine and then eat cake. Then we cheerio to each other and balik kampong
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17 Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,

18 yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.

19 The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights.

- Habukkuk 3:17-19

Deja Vu

Yesterday was Tuesday. Today is Tuesday. Gosh, got this weird feeling that history likes to repeat itself, too frequently for my liking. 2 Grp B lessons next to each other. And 3 phys tutorials!!! Eeek, grp b and phys overload!!

Actually ah, it has always been occuring this way what, right? Same routine every single week. Life's so mundane. EEeew the thought of having to undergo hard-core mugging for the next 4 months... that's scary enough :s

Oh well, got back phys. Super careless!!! SI unit for Magnetic flux density is TESLA lah!! Still, tyco me got one more mark for Phys, so i went up from 69% to 70%, or in alphabetical terms, from b to A. Yippee!! MY first A in the whole string of common tests!!! Oh got back 9233 on Monday. 60%=> B. hmmm thot i would do better, but well, carelessness.

I've resorted to staying back in skool (almost) everyday to mug, cuz if i go home, I'll SLEEP and SLACK and NOT do any work at all. Worse still, I just re-installed bomberman, so there's another hook of temptation there. Other than dosing for 10min just now, so far so good... Hope I don't go crazy or something ;)


To those going for o-level chi tml, wishing you the very best. Then again, the best is yet to be. No subtitles available yeah?

The Most BORING World Cup Finals

Think it was a good idea for me to have a nap before waking up for the match.. When I woke up, Kevin was already here, playing with Martin Atomic Bomberman. Haha woke up at round 1.10am, so went with pappy to go buy snacks...

Well, first time in my life that I ventured out at this weird time at night to go buy food. R.K was rather bustling. Still selling lots of prata here and there. Got 2 qusong for pappy.

Then suay ah, Macs was not open 24 hours today, so we had to drive all the way to the outlet at S'goon Central to go buy fries and nuggets. Then I forgot to ask for curry sauce to go with the nuggets. Haiz so blur...

Luckily by the time I got home, the match was just about to start, so we laid the table and started munching our stuff. Obviously, we bought too little, cuz we finished eating everything 10 mins into the game. Haha...

So ok on to the game itself. Henry went down at around the 8th min I think. Thot he would be out for good, like Owen. But he got in as quickly as he got out!!! Amazing, but true!!! Quite amusing to me actually.

Then got France scored the first goal within the first 10 min. But guess their defence rather sucky, cuz Italy equalised within the next 10 min. After that, it just got more and more boring lor. We could see that France players Henry and Ribudy were desparately trying to score on the Italian side, but 2 French VS 6 Italians+ a damn good goalkeeper => quite impossible to score! Haiz very sian lor. I was hoping someone would score the next goal, so that we wouldn't have to go into extra time and waste more time waiting for goals. Aiyah then the score had to stay as it was throughout the whole game, including extra time. Wah SBS AH!!! Think we dosed off through the extra time bit, waiting for penalty shoot-out to commence.

Then I guess Zidane did what was perhaps the most silly thing he could ever do in the last few minutes of his very last game. He had to get himself sent out of the game, because he couldn't control himself and header an Italian right at the chest. Gosh it must have hurt. You could see the shock on the other Italian players. Like what the toot lah, suddenly go and header someone like that. Quite un-sportsman like. Then the commentators were like criticising Zidane about how foolish he was to end his career with this form of humiliation. Haiz wonder what in the world he was doing. (shows Zidane Fleming's Right Hand Rule)

Ah hah... Now the penalty!!! France missed one, because the ball hit the top of the goal post and bounced to the ground just before the line; it never entered the goal region. Suay ah!!! Think that guy trying to imitate Zidane in the 1st goal, where Zidane's ball hit the top post and went in.

Actually, France was more or less doomed to lose the penalty, cuz Henry got substituted, and Zidane was sent off, so their 2 star-strikers were gone. How to win like that?

So it goes down in history: Italy is the World Cup Champion for 2006!!!

Ok dang tired... think i'll go nap an hour! Then must chiong S6 liao. Wah the whole tutorial by tonight. Die man!!!

2nd Last Farewell, Geraldine =)

Oh well, dear Geraldine's gonna go down under to study comp science. quite pro yeah?

So yup, joanna, chris, nick, aunty kah eng went to jumbo at the s'goon country club for dinner to have a 'farewell' sort of thing for geraldine. Met Uncle Loy Cheow and family there (oh wait, heng ern wasn't there).

Never knew Joanna hated prawns because they look like earthworms. No resemblance leh? The spread was quite ok lah. Had spastic conversations here and there. Chris wants to conquer the transport market. I say good!!! Cuz we could do with a bit more competition man!!!

Ok so after dinner, 5 of us hung out at Cafe Cartel to have dessert. Haha the da jie went to buy vodka from 7-11. thot I should stay away from it, cuz hey i'm young and, well, Chris has had bad memories of it, I think. Remember his back problem? So to keep myself satisfied, ordered a chocolate milkshake. Bad mistake though, cuz it was like 7 bucks, which was like almost the cost of the vodka and the cakes combined. The cakes had 50% discount cuz they wanted to sell it off fast. Haiz... should have been wiser and ask for water instead =(

Lol then we just talk more cock lah. just tock tock tock until like 11 plus. Tempted to take a bus back, but thot i'd walk up just for the fun of walking in the dead of night.

haha like so fast one of us suddenly going to disappear soon... Ok ok, yeah you'll be back every 3 months, so yup, don't think we'll miss you too much back here.. Hey but do remember us hor.. email email ah?

Study hard and score well, then come and help me design this.. ;)

Self- Righteousness VS Grace

Some lessons that I learnt after some stuff that happened last week.

I still remember this sermon by Pastor Kwan about 2 weeks ago. Think the topic was on "Self-Righteousness And Its Condemnation", taken from Luke 18:9-14. In a nutshell, it's a parable about this Pharisee who prayed about himself, like how good he was before God, and about a tax collector who pleaded with God for mercy.

I guess for me, there have been many instances when I have been rather judgemental about others and thought myself to be better than them. Ok, at least I don't make my judgements known to others openly, but still, who am I to judge? It's this sin of pride within me that has caused me to start elevating myself above others and think that I'm better than them. The point is, I'm actually deceiving myself, because I'm equally bad and wretched inside. To even think I'm better than everyone else, like woah, makes me even more wretched, but pride blinds me to it.

And yet, though I'm more wretched than anyone else, Jesus Christ still chose to love me as I am, UNCONDITIONALLY. Now I truly understand why salvation belongs to our God, and it was never what we do that can bring us to heaven. For you see, we humans are just sinful from birth (Psalm 51:5) and even when we think we are righteous enough when we compare ourselves to others, we fall and sin. You can try and be as righteous as you can, but trust me, you'll somehow fall/sin inevitably.

Knowing that we silly humans can NEVER be holy and righteous enough to enter heaven (Romans 3:23), God chose to send His one and only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, to be the Sacrificial Lamb for us. That is, we do not need to follow the old system of giving sacrifices for our sins----- Christ IS the Lamb sacrificed for us. And this Lamb is rather 'special', for all of our sins (past, present, future) are laid on this Lamb, so that, based on the old system, our sins are imparted onto the Lamb, and we ourselves are now considered to be free from sin, and hence we become righteous.

Thus we see that it is really none of our efforts or works that can earn us a place in heaven, for:

1) We are sure to fall and sin at some point of our lives
2) The sacrifice was provided by GOD, NOT us. All we did was to accept God's gift of the Sacrificial Lamb (who had to die because of all our sins that were imparted on Him, as commanded under the old system)

Ephesians 2:8-9 sums it up well. That salvation is not by one's works, so that no one can boast about his salvation or compare himself to others and say, "I'm better than you!"

Guess we should continually remember to always confess our sins and beg God for mercy and forgiveness with a sincere and humble heart, just like the tax collector. Never should we be proud, just because of our works for God. Don't forget, that 1) we are still wretched; 2) by thinking you are better, you have already sinned.

Christ says: " For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled (or abased in other versions), and he who humbles himself will be exalted." (Luke 18:14b)

At the end of it all, the Pharisee prayed a very nice and eloquent prayer, but he never entered the prescence of God because of his pride. The tax collector, who humbled himself and prayed sincerely from his heart, found God and received justification. He went home with peace in his heart.

Haha bit long argument so to speak. Hope you lasted all the way to here.

May the Lord bless you as He continues to reveal to you more understanding about His great gift of salvation that's so freely available, thanks to His great love for us.

God bless ya!! =)

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13"But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, 'God, have mercy on me, a sinner.'

- Luke 18:13

Improvement!!! Err... maybe not

Went through the rest of the Chem common test today. Haha I was able to gain one mark from the last part of question C3.. The one which asks us to state the assumptions. Apparantly mine sounds right, but it seems like I didn't get a mark. So Chee Keong 'assumed' that the marker forgot to mark that part and gave me an extra mark, so my overall percentage went up from 51% to 52%. Like wow, still a D. (big deal... sigh). But I think jiang zhe even worse, cuz he miss one mark to being the ONLY A in the class. Then he tried to argue that conservation of charge is equivalent to maintaining the same emf, as the work done per unit charge remains the same, so emf must remain the same also what. Chee Keong of course said, "Too chim lah!" and shrugged him off. Lol

Oh and yeah yesterday, Mdm Ho gave us a breakdown of the grades for GP. Haiz only one A2 (must be Yuxin lah), then round 6 B3s, 6 B4s etc.. no one failed essay, but compre had 5 failures. Then the media question was a suicide question, and yes, I committed suicide. Die ah!! Essay screw again... =(

On a happier note, no phys tutorial today, cuz teacher not around (prob watch too much world cup. lol) and no phys 's', so ya lah end school 3 hours early, so go home early and slack lor. haha

What a way to start again...

Received Chem during recess. Didn't know Chee Keong was serious when he said he would go up to the staff room to get our scripts. Haiz... Dropped one grade to 51%. Haha just pass man!!!

Then the next depressor was Phys MCQ. Haiz 18/30. Ok lah granted that i only had one or 2 careless mistakes, but quite bad enough leh. If I didn't make those careless mistakes, then I should have been fine with 22/30. Haiz typical me.

The final suicide pill came when we got back F Maths. But hey, I maintained my old grade. MY 4th E!!! Whee... standard didn't really drop for the past 4 tests since last year. Anywayz, think I'm used to getting an E all the way... Wonder if I'm destined to get E always. EEEE-yucks...

oh well, hope the rest will be ok. 'fingers crossed' ;)

My Last and Final Youth Day

So yeah... Went to the airport this morning to send Pappy off to Chiangmai. But before he went in, we took a ride to see the Budget Terminal. Gosh couldn't they come up with a nicer name? Like Terminal 4 or something, not Budget lah.

Ok.. As expected, the interior of the warehouse looks very.. erm... spacious and bare... There's Han's at the corner though, so good place to have lunch. Beware, bring your earplugs, cuz with ample space in the terminal, kids are bound to run about like mad chickens and scream their head off as they play catching. Their screams resonate will well in the warehouse, so you may find those earplugs useful.. hehe

Had char kway teow for lunch before going back.. Hmm haven't eaten that for a long time, so yeah...

Gosh on the MRT back, felt that great sense of depression and like... wastedness. Yeah.. My last Youth Day ever in my entire life as a school-going guy, spent at home, rotting away. Sigh my youth is fleeting, but at least can still make use of whatever's left right?

Then my hp rang... Thot it would be my mum asking me if I had any plans for the day, or someone just asking me about what tutorial to do tml... But no, it was an invitation to go play pool and bowl. Like wow, i was whining just now, and then here's my chance to have fun now. So I agreed and met up with him..

Haha i owned him at pool. Hmm thought he was as good as me though.. Haha the last game was like a real tyco game. I shot once and 3 balls went in. Ouch one of them was his... Hmmm...

Then for once, in my dunno how many games of bowling, I scored above 100 points!!! Yup 102 to be exact!!! So happy with myself. But then started deproving on the 2nd game. Then picked up again on the 3rd game. Yay!!!! so 2nd game scored 85 and 3rd game scored 94. Ooo wee... Still remember last time, I always throw the ball into the longkang (drain), and that's where it always landed. Never before, could I go up beyondf 80. But today was my lucky day!!! hehe Am i pro or wat?

Had dinner at Chomp Chomp... Wah finally get a chance to eat in there. Hokkien Mee was shiok! Wash it down with sugarcane juice.. Nice combi!!!

After a visit to the bank, both of us had a slow walk home. Sorrie ah, had to leave you outside my house and make you walk the rest of the way back.

Well well guess i got wat i wanted for my last youth day. Just playing and enjoying my youth before I move on. And it would not have been possible without you, my dear friend, Jeremy =)

Walking on the Spiritual Highway

sigh... it was a hard decision for me, although the choice was OBVIOUS!! I mean its outright wrong, and yet you still wanna hold on to it. Of course, I have to agree that it makes life so much easier with it around. But for some reason, my conscience sort of pricked me real hard, and it really affected me so much. Couldn't have a decent conversation with God. I mean that's real bad lah...

Can hear Him telling me not to be a hypocrite and let go of it, but for a few days i still refused. And yeah, this spiritual baggage was slowing me down. I had to get rid of it, otherwise I would suffer even more! Otherwise, I could not come to Him just as I am. I have to enter His prescence as a Pharisee, a hypocrite. Yucks!!! Another scary thing that struck me was that He could take away so much more better things, all just because of my little act of disobedience.

Ok so i xia ding jue xing, must get rid of it tonight, else i'll suffer even more. The prompt comes out: "Leave some files on it for future use?" No get rid of it totally!!! I don't wanna associate myself with it anymore!!!

Now its gone! Hmm the feeling that i lost something useful sinks in, but hey, that relief of my heart! What can be beat that? Yes I feel free again!!!

Walking on the spiritual highway with my Saviour is better than lugging my spiritual baggage on the B-class road.
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22 But Samuel replied:
"Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
as much as in obeying the voice of the LORD ?
To obey is better than sacrifice,
and to heed is better than the fat of rams.

- 1 Samuel 15:22

No free drinks? Drink beer!!!

Haha crashed parade today... Got hold of the admin posts, so congrats to everyone of you on your positions in admin. Eh must work hard ah... The real fun will only start when your Sec 1s come in.. Till then, keep looking out for one another kaez?

Got this cool CD of oldies from Yeye.. Yay got Mambo Italiano (tune of Char Siew Bao) and Seasons In The Sun. Just what I have been looking for...

After lunch at Yeye's place, we went to taka to see the Singapore Food Festival. Saw Singapore's makan guru, KF Seetoh, there as well. A bit of a flop actually, cuz it started at 3.30pm in the sweltering heat. All of us were sweating like mad dogs in a chinese restaurant. then think got some communication error between the organisers and the shops selling food. You see, official guests (ie pple like us) have a card that allows us to go get free samples here and there. However, some shops refused to give us the free samples cuz apparantly they were not told, or were told only on the day itself, so they refused to give us our freebies. Drinks stall especially, still selling at normal price. So in the end, after we got our food, Mum dropped by the Tiger Beer counter which was giving away free beer. So yeah, we drank beer instead. Mum drank one whole cup herself and she thoroughly enjoyed it. Bottoms up!!!

Ok then just kept gambling the whole night, but lost quite a bit at the end... Haiz its all on luck isn't it?

Happy 10th Post

Yay!!! Reached my 10th post liao... Celebrate!!!

~Confetti emerging, whistles, cheering~

Lol and thanks to Zheng for starting the design of my blog from scratch!!! Wah Zheng, dunno how you did it, but you are just too pro ah!!! I uncle do it myself, sure headache ah... haha.. sorry ah, 'kidnap' you longer than expected ;)

And yeah thx to GG also for helping me out with the designs and ideas. Sorrie kope Zheng for too long, then you got no chance to ask him for help... :(

anywayz, the tagboard that i have now is quite cool and nice. thot oggix was good, but too bad their anti-spam code sort of likes to spam codes at the user, so just got pissed with it. Yup go tag tag tag yeah!!!

Oh well need to spruce up a bit here and there.. but should be fine lah, playing with the code and colour values...

kk gtg cyaz!!!

Why the World Does NOT Need to WATCH Superman...

1) At the end of the movie, the people around me were saying that there was loads of CGI.. ok... then people just watch for the sake of watching. Like hey, it's Taufik's new CD, I must have it. Hey, it's Mr Brown's favourite Bak Chor Mee stall, must eat there (of course be careful of the tur kwa and the CCTV). So yeah, people just watch for the sake of watching. Not much plot to it.

2) Too much smooshing between Clark and Lois. Like come on, where's the action? There was no major fighting scene between Lex Luther and Superman himself. Its just Superman being incapacitated on the new island created by Luther, which contains krpytonite. So Superman is just out of action and Luther starts to kick him all the way, and we see our hero sqeauling in pain. Like I get much kick out of that. Then he just falls over a waterfall, down into the sea. Like a lot of kick also. Then of all things, he is rescued by Lois and family. So i guess even a superhero needs a saviour himself.. haha.. But the main thing is, the action occurs in the sub-plots alone. Where's the big one?

3) I think Lex Luther (well played by Kevin Spacey) was the best character. Haha funny and sarcastic to the core. To me the best scene was when he was showing of his grand master plan to Lois.

Luther: (to girlfriend) What was it that my father always used to say to me?
Girlfriend: You're losing your hair!

Other than that, the bit when little Johnny (or whatever name) plays the piano with one of Luther's henchmen. That was so cute... Haha then little Johnny rams the piano at him. Guess that was the best part of the show to me.

4) The famous reason: He wears his underwear on the outside. Does he want to lead a new fashion trend? Haha tough luck...

Where's my Pulitzer Prize?